I'm scared someone help me please

[moonchild12]

Hi, this is my first question in here. I'm 21 and lately i cant control my Anxiety. Not a lot of people know about this in my life, not even my mom. I'm really worried about myself and my mental health because the last few weeks had been horrible. Its getting worst at night, like i'm OK one minute and then i cant control my emotions.

It got to the point that i have to go to the nearest bathroom and get myself together, it is really hard i don't know why i'm so vulnerable lately. I want to mention that the last 3 years of my life have been full of very unfortunate events, like the lost of my father, a toxic relationship, and an Abortion. (just to mention the hardest ones)

I got chest pain, difficulties to breath, crying desperate, hand and body shaking, and other symptoms that i cant really explains. I don't want to feel depressed again im too young to be feeling so blue. By the way (I am a spiritual person and i really want to get better)

Can someone help please. Thank you

[Paxiled]

Holding it in just makes it turn into an internal obsession.  You've been through a lot, but how we react to things is very individual.  If you're holding on to stuff, it is time to see a psychologist and learn to let go.

[AnxiousNoMore]

The symptoms you list are the result of anxiety and thinking there is no end to it, which can make you tense up and start noticing little things which can work even harder on your well being. They will disappear if you can stop worrying that something is physically wrong with you, which isn't easy for some people so they never get relief.
If you are to resolve the anxiety, you will need to figure what is making you anxious today and work on that, instead of just thinking "I had a rough 3 years and a bunch of things bothered me." Or are all of them still nagging at you, in which case that can have a cumulative effect and you will have to deal with each one separately to see if you can resolve the anguish.
Therapy may help but since you are a spiritual person do you go to a church where there is someone you can confide in?
It is natural to not confide in many others as you mentioned because likely they won't understand what another person is going through EVEN if they have suffered with anxiety before - no one can walk in someone else's shoes or mind. However a professional or someone experienced with your situation should be confided in.
Good luck and write back any time.