Irrationally Paranoid and I don't know why

Don't know if anyone can even relate to this but I have battled on and off for about the last year and a half with random thoughts of paranoia...

So i guess i'll come out with all of it.

In the fall of 2007 I got very worried about my body and started buying numerous different types of vitamins (about 12 pills a day)  and became a vegetarian.  However, I am an extremely active and fit person, play many many sports throughout the week, go to the gym, and generally eat healthy. I do enjoy going out and drinking beer and smoke cigarettes (from 3-10 a day depending on the day).

So this got so bad that i started having panic attacks at random times, thinking i had some kind of terminal disease that i was going to find out about by dropping dead any minute... Or something freaky was going to happen to my like in House that no one could figure out.  However, it never happened, and i continue being a strong, athletic 23 year old.

Then it turned into being paranoid about having AIDS, yes i made a mistake and had unprotected sex, but have been tested MANY times since then and am clean. However despite the test results i wasn't convinced.

Then in the winter this year, i managed to convince myself that i had genital warts...despite the fact I hadn't had sex with anyone....Went to the doctor,  totally clean for everything, which relieved the stress a bit.


And since then its gotten much better, but i still have periods where i get really nervous about having something and I'm there again.  I shave and get razor burn I get freaked out, i have NO symptoms at all i get freaked out.  Its getting really hard to manage, I just don't understand.

I am no angel, i do have sex because i cant let myself stop living for some irrational paranoia -and its not like it gets better if i dont anyways- but i always use a condom, and know my partners are clean.

My father has an anxiety disorder i think, where he needs to be on anti-depressants just to function at work., could this be whats going on with me?  Do i need to be on medication?  

[SassyLassie]

I would see a doctor about this and tell him/her all you have told us. Sometimes all we need is just a little "boost' and it will help to get us on the right track. I have "health anxiety" too, and the more I worry, the more I think I am sick, it is a miserable feeling.

I am prone to panic attacks too, and they usually come on when I am under stress or worrying about how I feel. I see a Naturopath, and she does homeopathy and vitamin treatments with me, also, I see an acupuncturist, this helps at times as well.

[giu]

yes but does it ever go away or get better???