Is anyone like this? weird thoughts..

[mario_silent]

Hi everyone I just wanted to share my progress so far with my anxiety... it's been kind of a short road so far but I think I've got some good results even though right now I'm pretty worried about some things I've been feeling. I started feeling anxious with a weird feeling in my stomach, like the one you feel when you're nervous, I totally disregarded it. Then it grew to sweat and finally to the fear of throwing up; I went through hard times, sometimes I didn't wanna eat, others I felt like i couldn't go out because I'd feel like puking wherever I went. Well it's been good so far, I was holding on to my dreams like falling in love and being happy (I'm kinda the romance guy). That kept me strong. I've been in an alternative treatment all along with homeopathy and bach flowers and with good results, little by little It's been like a month. At times I feel like the strongest person in the world but others I realize my weakness... just when everything is fine and I can concentrate on my dreams and the things I like a new thought that scares me crosses my mind, it's totally stupid and Illogic but the thought makes me feel that fear in my stomach and it doesn't go away for a few days, no matter what I know about the thought; it can be as stupid as "ohh I ate something that tasted weird... now I'm gonna throw up and die" or stuff like that and even though I know it's impossible for that to happen I'm afraid of it... please can anyone tell me how to deal with those thoughts? they are nothing to me but they really make my body shake and don't even let me enjoy my life... Sometimes I feel really sad 'cause there are so many things that scare me and I haven't even lived them... I can just Imagine how hard it's gonna be later and really start questioning myself if it's worth so much worry and pain through this life without the happiness? I'm starting to lose even more hope since my last fearsome thought... it's a strange one and I think I might be the only one with it but I'll tell you about it: lately my mind suddenly loses interest in the opposite sex. I suddenly feel like I don't want love or more correctly, love means nothing and if you remember love was my fuel to endure this pain... so if my mind creates a thought like that, my life and every desire I had before that made me happy is gone to waste and the worst thing is that I don't know if I can really be the same person I was before 'cause it seems like my body of course doesn't feel as bad symptoms as before but I'm not so sure if my mind will let me enjoy this life...

SOrry about the long post but I had a lot of things in mind, sorry to bother you but I'd love to read of someone who's actually become the same person or has had these kind of weird thoughts before. It would be a lot of help. Thanks everyone!

[nikki1408]

i have had social anxiety and minor ocd since i was little. but the actual panic and really bad anxiety and everything kicked in on january 2ndof this year. i have been trying different anti depresants to see if they would help. i tried paxil which made it ALOT worse. then i tried effexor xr which was even worse than the paxil. now im on zoloft. i have been taking zoloft for almost 2 months now and have seen a little bit of improvement but not as much as i would like. so i hope this helps. message if you need to talk more
nikki1408

[mario_silent]

Hi and thanks for the quick answer! makes me feel better to know of something similar to my thoughts... well I don't have those weird thoughts of going crazy or hurting someone, I guess I'm lucky but I do have lack of interest in love recently and I'm afraid I might not get back that interest since I've always been very interested in girls and meeting new people :/ but well I'm sorry to hear you're engaged and lacking interest , I really hope you can fight your way through this and be happy with him, he is a lucky guy bu the way lol :)

Thanks a lot for the answer, It's really helped me out. BTW, how long have you been fighting through this and have you got good results ?

[nikki1408]

i think everyone with anxiety has weird thoughts at some point. all different kinds!! i too have them and they are the worst part of the anxiety for me. i never had the scared of throwing up thing thatnk goodness but i did have the loss of interest in the other sex thought even though i am engaged. i love him so much but i am constantly in a argument with myself on if i really do or not!!
i dont know if you have the weird scared of hurting yourself or others, or the you are going crazy thoughts but i do. and let me tell you, those ones reeeaaalllyyyy suck!!
i still struggle with my weird thoughts and unfortunately dont know how to stop them. but i just wanted to tell you that i know where you are at on your weird thoughts.
i also feel like the person i was before is someone else. like i was just watching a movie of someones life and then i guess i just woke up. i never really feel happy either and im not interested in anything i was before. i too wonder if we will ever be the same as we used to be?? hmm guess we will have to fight our way through this and hopefully win our battle with this disorder,
good luck to you,
nikki1408.
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