Is my anxiety going away or am I getting better?

[Kcjr96]

Okay so back in 2010 I expierenced a anxiety attack or panic attack. It was never clearly explained. Anyway I refused to talk to doctors about because I was scared of taking pills but I was put in a psych home for 5 days the first time it happened and they put me on sleeping pills because I couldn't sleep.sounds stupid I know. Anyway I have been dealing with them for six years now and I was getting along alright I guess but couldn't travel far from my comfort zone which is about 17 maybe 2p miles and I had to know where I was or I was crippled mentally. Then about two years ago I started to ween myself off the sleeping meds and for the most part I'm doing alright but I never feel well rested. I'm 20 years old and had my son in 2015. Well I had to travel about 30 miles to go see him in a different hospital and that really messed up. Now I've been having anxiety anywhere I go. About a month an half ago I started talking to my first therapist and I thought to myself do I really have anxiety that bad or am I just telling myself I do because of the way it used to be. I'm questioning it so much now but still don't want to drive really far and push myself into a bad spot. For the most part the attacks only last for a brief moment but other times last for a few hours. Now that I started talking to this therapist I'm getting really confused though because if I go and start having an attack, I can feel it but after its over I say was it really that bad. Please bear with me im still trying to figure out how to ask this.should I try to drive a distance and see if the attack only last briefly or is it stupid to test myself. Like deep down I know I will have anxiety but then again I feel like I won't have it that. Now that I've finally started talking to this therapist she wants me to take pills but I don't know if I'm that bad that I need them but then again something deep down says I do because I know I have anxiety but then again maybe I don't anymore?

[Kcjr96]

The most part fine but if I travel far then yes I do have anxiety.

[Kcjr96]

I feel as if maybe I have gone so long without help and relied only on myself that I have found a way to control it under normal circumstances. If I were to travel good distance somewhere it would likely be what it always is which is crippling. Damn talking really does help things. If I don't travel far I'm for

[Kcjr96]

Maybe I have gone*

[Kcjr96]

I feel as if maybe I have go e so long without that I have found a way to control it under normal circumstances. If I were to travel good distance somewhere it would likelyrics be what it always is which is crippling.

[Kcjr96]

Also the therapist recommended I take medication. Even if it were only for a little bit.

[Kcjr96]

Yes it is cut but I feel she doesn't do an adequate job. The first time we talked though and having somebody that sort of in a way understands was very comforting but now I'm doubting myself Wether I should actually go on meds or not. Medication is a freaky topic for me. I just can't explain how I'm feeling. I know I'm still having anxiety attacks but are they bad enough to be put on meds. I feel yes but no at the same time.

[Paxiled]

What kind of therapist are you seeing?  Is it CBT?  Look, how you treat this is your choice -- it's not up to the medical profession.  They can provide guidance, but you get to decide.  Here's the thing -- because we don't know of any biological cause of the problem, there is not pharmaceutical cure.  On the other hand, if you convince yourself you're not anxious, that you've just been thinking that way, which is the core of the disease, you're cured.  That's what the CBT form of therapy is supposedly best at doing of the different forms of therapy.  If it doesn't work, the pills will always be there to try.  

[Kcjr96]

I still get severely sweaty hands and a weird feeling in my chest but my heart hasn't really pounded that bad in a very long time. Like I get all of the other symptoms but my heart beat only elevates then goes away. I'm very confused ughh. I've gone to the hospital thinking I was having a stroke and a heart attack a few times. I'm trying to paint the picture very well for everybody with as much inside information as possible. Do you think it's a less severe form of anxiety maybe it gradually got better or maybe after suffering so long I'm more well equip to deal with it.