Is obssesion and anxiaty normal at this age

Im 15 never had any sexual attraction to men. Only likeds girls,. Only masturbated to woman. Only had crushes on girls, Never had any doubts or ever qeustioned my sexuality. But out of no were I couldnt stop obbseseing that I might be gay. I couldnt stop doubting my sexuality and felt like i had to be gay and didnt have a choice in it. I tryed debunking my doubts and when did I new doubts would pop up. I constantly kept checking nude pics of men and I would look at it for 30 seconds to see if I was attracted to it or not. I honetly wasnt. I felt like I could get aroused by it if tried really hard I could but to didnt want to. Ive been anxious and depress 24/7 and couldnt stop obsessing for about 2 mouths since i got it. Im not gay at all.Theirs is no sexual urges powering this phobia its 100% anxiaty. Ever since i got it ive been jerking everyday to woman to proove to my self  im not gay but its been very hard to get aroused. Every time  think of girls my anxiaty sky rockets and get a nagative feeling that pushes me away. When I see a cute girl walking down the hall at my school I want to like her its just It feels somthing telling me im gay when I look at her an makes me really anxous. I dont want to be gay or bi or have any realation ship with a gay guy. i want a girlfriend and the ability to enjoy having a girlfriend without any anxiaty or fears of being gay. Is it normal to obsesse about something like this for 24/7 for 2 mounths. Im just sick of all this anxiaty and being deppresed all the times. My fear is I might my atrraction to woman might go away for ever or this phobia takes over my life and never go away. It just feels like theirs a gay demon in my head blinding my judgement.

[remar]

I think it would be a good idea for you to see a counselor about this. It sounds like it's causing you alot of stress and anxiety. Take care. Remar

[chris0258]

It's pretty normal to question your sexuality when you have ocd. I've been ocd for some time and had these horrifying impulses to lean over and kiss a girl. I'm not gay I'm married with 2 children. I didn't know what the heck was going on. It sent me into total panic attack thought I was gay. So I leaned on the urges excepted them stopped fearing them and I'm 100% into men. If you look up ocd it is one of the top intrusive thoughts. Talking to a counselor is not such a bad idea.  Keep your head up... chris

[greenlydia]

I believe at your age it is pretty normal to question our sexuality. Your hormones are in a bit of an uproar right now and puberty is NOT an easy time. I agree with chris that you have allowed yourself to become totally obsessed with this thinking. Whether or not you have actual OCD can only be diagnosed by a doctor and I also agree that you should seek some therapy.
As the mother of a gay son, I can tell you, with some authority, that there was never any doubt in his mind he was gay. I believe that if you were gay, you would know. That you are constantly testing yourself is only making things worse. You have stated that you've forced yourself to look at pictures of nude men. You said you did NOT get aroused. If you were gay, you would have. The other "test" you are forcing yourself to take is masturbating EVERY day to pictures of naked women. For a young man with no anxiety, this is very normal and fun...........but you aren't doing it for fun, you're doing it to prove your not gay. This pressure you're putting on yourself is no doubt what is keeping you from getting aroused, not that you're gay.
When I was in my early 20's, I was in a relationship with a man that simply was not working out...........actually, it was one of many that didn't work out! I found that I was spending as much time with my girlfriends as I could to avoid the situation. The idea (fear) slipped into my mind that since I much preferred the company of my women friends and my relationship with a man sucked, then I must be a lesbian. Like you, I freaked out and went to a therapist. It took about 2 sessions for me to see the truth. (All these years later, as I've become far more enlightened, and have a gay son, I am somewhat ashamed of the fear that I might have been a lesbian............like it would have been the end of the world)
I honestly think you need to put the damn nude pictures away, you need to stop trying to prove, through daily masturbation, that you are aroused only by women, and you need to get these compulsive thoughts out of your head, which may take some therapy.
But you can't just sit there.......you need to take some action.
Peace
Greenlydia