Is this Anxiety? I need to solve this!

[Vianky]

Hello,

I am  29 year old female and I'm having some problems that are really getting to me right now.

Here is the background:

5 weeks ago I went to the doc and told her I wanted to stop smoking and told her that I had heard that wellbutrin was a good way to do it. I also told her that I was having a few anxiety problems. Not very frequent but they were there. She gave me the wellbutrin an I started taking 150 once a day for one week then I was told by her to start taking it twice a day. After that happened, I want to say by day 2 I started with this constant Bran fog. Everything is just fuzzy, I can not concentrate, My memory if very bad right now. I cant remember things that happen sometimes min before. I feel like I am high or drunk all the time. Lightheaded and just a feeling of being out of it. I stare right through people when they are talking to me even though I am still able to hold a conversation it takes a lot of work. By day 3 of taking the 2 pills a day I stopped because I really did think this was causing me to feel this way but today is day 16 off of the wellbutrin and I still feel the same.

Went to the Doc yesterday and she said she found some liquid in my ear and that my throat was red. Gave me  nasal spray and sudafed every 12 hours for the next 2 weeks. So far its been 24 hours and still no change but it really has been only 24 hours so there is hope.

Now, every time I type in Brain fog on google most of what I see is anxiety. Does this sound right? My body does not hurt. I have no pains just this constant brain fog that will not go away. I wake up with it and go to bed with it for the past month and I just cant take it anymore. I feel like I'm being robed of my life right now because it does not let me enjoy it the way I should be able to.

I do know that I have had some anxiety problems but never have I felt this way. It has mostly been at night and its just an overwhelming fear of several things that I cant get out of my head. My heart starts to race. This is something that would happen maybe once or twice a month.

So when I think anxiety I think that not this brain fog.


Another thing to take into account is that before this all started I had these dreams about going on this cruise that I'm about to go on in July and seeing my mom that I have not see in 6 years (she will be going with us) At the end in the dream I could not remember anything I did that week. Had no memory of it and was not able to enjoy it at all. The week came and went and I don't remember spending any time with my mom.

Could this be me subconsciously doing this to myself? Is it anxiety? Right now I'm set to see the doc again in 2 weeks If its not what she thinks it is then we will have to look for something else and I really wanted to be able say hey maybe it could be this.

[Vianky]

Well its been one week on this nasal spray and sudafed and no change. I was really hoping this would work. My PCM told me to give it 2 week but after a week I would think I would feel just a tad better. I went ahead and scheduled with a psychiatrist but the soonest anyone can see me is June 21. I called 3 different places so I took the 21st  I see my PCM again next week and I don't know what to do. She did tell me that the next step was to look at anxiety but, should I just wait until the 21 to see the pro or should I see what she has to say?

Last time she told me that what she usually gives for anxiety is Xanax but I just don't see how that will help me. I don't need to relax I just need this brain fog to go away.

I also feel like my depression is coming back. It might just be because I'm stressed with this whole situation but should I have someone give me something also for depression considering that I'm try to figure out what will help with this Maybe anxiety problem?

basically, should I be treated for one thing at a time or try to tackle both? Are there any meds that treat both? Ugh god know if it even is anxiety!

[MMahon]

My suggestion, and I'm no doctor, is to go to a psychiatrist as soon as possible.
It's the best and quickest road to getting help.  They are MD's and neurologists so they can look at your entire situation and make the best diagnosis.
Help is available and know that many of us have gone thru this and made it thru ok! I know these are only words but you will look back at this time and be glad you are taking the action you are.  
You will not be like this the rest of your life and you are not crazy.  You have a very treatable medical condition and just need help getting it.
Let us know how you make out

[Vianky]

Yes I am very excited! She has a fear of flying and will not get on a plane. For me to fly my whole family to go see her its close to $4000. My brother and I asked her to go on this cruise with us and he would fly with her and it will only be to FL so for her its just a 2 hour flight and she said yes.

The doc I saw was just my PCM. I wonder if I should wait to see if it IS this liquid in my ears thing. See if the meds work. So far 2 days and everything is still the same. I see her again on June 7. She said that if its not the ear thing then we would look at anxiety. Problem is that she said that what she uses for anxiety is Xanax and I tried it once and hated it. So she does not know what to give me.

I feel they will give me something that will "relax" me but I don't feel I need to relax. I need the fog to go away and not feel like I'm high 24/7. If I get something like Xanax I think it will just make my "high" feeling worse. Are there any anxiety meds that do not give you that feeling?

One option I have is to just call a Psychiatrist and see if they will see me after the 7th Just to make sure its not this ear thing. Or should I just go ahead and get seen before then?

I'm at a point right now that I just want something done. I need help. I cant take this anymore an I'm so scared that I will be like this for the rest of my life!

[MMahon]

Yes it sounds like it could be 'anticipatory anxiety'.
It sounds like meeting your mom after so long is understandably an exciting thing for you.
Is the excitement for positive or negative reasons?  Not that that matters because emotions always run high when family is involved.
Anxiety effects everyone in different ways. Was the doctor you saw a GP or did you see a psychiatrist?   Go to a good psychiatrist for treatment of anxiety since they are best equiped to deall with these dissorders.
Now doesn't sound like a good time to be quiting smoking.  You have obvious stressful events going on and compounding it with that may be too much for you right now.
Nicotene withdrawal compounded by anti-depressant medication compounded by significant life events is an invitation to stress and anxiety beyond anyone's 'normal' ability to cope with.
Seek help for anxiety first and you will be better able to cope with the rest as you progress.
Good luck.