Well first off this is my first year attending college and It's been pretty stressful I must say. I see a normal psychiatrist who told me this is all caused from Anxiety and Irrational fears. Looking back on my life I have always been sorta a worrier, a little shy and anxious.
Let me start off my saying I have had worries like this in the past before about my physical health, but in time they have past due to being so busy in high school. Nowadays in college, I am not as busy and things have been going downhill. About a month ago I had some weird panic attack out of the blue and it must have triggered my anxiety. Ever since, I have been worrying constantly. What is bothering me the most is Derealization and Depersonalization, I feel as though I am living in a dream world, nothing feels real. It's quite weird and it's bothering me lately. Other symptoms I have are fatigue, brain fog, and short temper because I am just so over feeling this way, and lastly a very hard time falling asleep because my mind is constantly worrying which sends me into an Anxiety Attack.
Lately for the life of me, I CANNOT stop thinking that I have Schizophrenia or Bi Polar. It is worrying me like CRAZY. Every time I start feeling better and back to normal, the thought of having one of these mental illnesses will pop into my head and really get me down. I worry about it all day long, and I keep checking my symptoms online which contributes to me feeling this way for sure. I just cant get the thought off my mind for the life of me, no matter what I'm doing, it's on my mind that at any second I'll start hearing voices or have to be admitted to a mental hospital. I just feel like I'm going absolutely crazy because of these thoughts. Deep down, I know I probably don't have either of these Illnesses but I don't know, I am adopted so I have no family back round at all, which adds to the worry even more. I just wish there was someway to know for sure if I had either of these or not :(
This last weekend I went out socializing with friends, had a few beers, and just relaxed. The worries completely left and I was having such a great night with my friends and I felt so good. I mean they'd pop up maybe once or twice and I didn't feel completely normal but nothing like how when I'm at home. Whenever I'm with friends I can smile and just act like my normal outgoing self. But when I'm alone, I constantly worry about having a mental Illness and it's really irritating me :( I seriously have convinced myself that I have Schizophrenia or Bi Polar disorder despite what my parents, and psychiatrist says.
Currently I'm not taking any medications daily. I start CBT tomorrow, and I'm hoping I can overcome this with just that treatment. But, my psychiatrist did prescribe me 50mg Vastrail on an as needed bases because I was having trouble sleeping.
You have anxiety -> OCD thought pattern, this is why the thought that something more serious is going on keeps popping up, I have the same thing.
obviously this is like a vicious cycle,
Anxiety -> OCD thoughts "maybe I have schizophrenia" -> increased anxiety -> Physical symptoms -> more worry -> Anxiety/panic attack.
how annoying is it when people just dismiss the fact that you might have something more serious then anxiety? I understand exactly how it is. BUT you have to listen to what people are saying, if it's professionals telling you it's anxiety then it is. the only reason you don't think or want to accept that is because right now you're not thinking rationally, and that's because of the anxiety. (another vicious cycle)
the experts who're diagnosing you ARE thinking rationally, thats why it's important to just accept what their telling you, rather then believing what your brain is telling you, because it's not rational, I know it feels like it is.
I hope this helped, it can be hard to get your head around and you may just read this and say to yourself 'you don't understand!' but I really do.
anxiety is life crippling and hard to get out of, cos everythings a cycle of bad events and it's hard to see clearly as it is.
sometimes i'm so ill with it i feel like i'm terminally ill or something, no over-exaggerating.
I hope the CBT goes well, keep a positive open mind about it.
I'm glad to can have a somewhat normal social life, do you not have the derealisation problems when you're out trying to enjoy yourself?
everything how u described ur worries and feelings. is exactly how i feel sometimes. i constantly think and think and think about my panic attacks and every medication they give me im too scared to take... i constantly feel like im talking to myself all day and stressing over this....
Your worrying a lot and since your doing that everything is fearful- you fear OCD BI-POLAR THE MENTAL HOSPITAL . That's what your brain is feeding off of because that is the information that is making you fearful . When I was going through this phase I was exactly like that thinking the same exact thing . Sometimes thoughts got better sometimes they got worse but in the end they are THOUGHTS not facts . You can't control them all the time but sometimes when your having these " what if " thoughts face them head on . Okay so right now you maybe thinking well what if I have bipolar ocd what if I go to the mental hospital ? Well if your bipolar you'd be no different. Ocd you'd be no different. Mental hospital you'd be no different . When you dissociate you feel so out of your own body , you mind will feed off anything because you aren't in that moment , when it gets brought up in your mind you click and start getting scared it makes you feel real for a second. Its scary and you don't want to feel it but for some reason this is the way your mind is getting attention. If you have a mental illness who cares you deal with it you go on with your life u still do what you need to do for you, having a mental illness has so much stigma on it that it makes people scared truth is its an illness , I am BI POLAR and I'm still me I just have to take medication to stable out my mood and its ok its nothing to torture yourself over. Mental illness or not stay strong and write down how you feel , notice your triggers, retrain your mind a little if its possible in this stage, and try not to worry so much. You are a beautiful person no matter what .
What an excellent answer this was. I am experiencing the exact same thing. Your rational response has helped put some things into perspective for me. My anxiety is so high right now - I have trouble sleeping (mind jumps around). My OCD will focus on that - convincing myself I have Bipolar because of this and that I suffer from depression. I will check the net over and over trying to find infor. to convince myself I don't have Bipolar - or do. LOL Full-on compulsion by doing this.
I feel your pain. Your experiencing what I am right now. However - I can read your post and rationally think - that you are not bipolar - you have OCD - and are obsessing.
For me - I have never experienced anxiety at the height it is now - so I keep worrying that there something else wrong. I've also been having trouble sleeping - my mind just jumps arnd races. I also am having problems with depression due to anxiety and what it's doing to me @ the moment. So I will start taking all of these symptoms and start applying them to bipolar ..... however - my dr., 2 phys, and my counsellor all have said I don't have bipolar - but I still obsess. So not that you have read my post (and it's about someone else ) - can you see how it's your OCD messing around with you? Try and do some ERP.
You have theh same obsessions as me. I have been worrying I'm bipolar as well - as my anxiety has never been @ the height it is right now so i keep thinking that this is no my normal - and it must be bipolar. I too can't sleep. My brain jumps from one thing to another when I try and sleep and it causes me to have panic. So I have to take a sleeping pill. It's been like this for months.
I would say you are the same as me - GAD/OCD. You have depression from your anxiety - which is what I'm struggling with too.
My anxiety also causes me to have physical sensations which just about drives me nuts - because my anxiety will focus. My heart pounds continually a lot of the time too.
Couple of suggestions. An SSRI will help you with your OCD - I'm on one, but I can't go high enough on it - and it's not the one for me. So I'm going to switch.
Once your anxiety gets down - do ERP for OCD and CBT for GAD. Build a team for your recovery - a good doctor, counsellor and/or phyc. Also try and make sure you have some family that is supportive too.
When I have very brief moments of anxiety free during the day (not very often as of late) - and I'm calmer, these thoughts don't bug me as much.
Your central nervous system is very heightened right now from your anxiety. It's just a vicious circle.
I'm really sorry you are going through this - I have been struggling for 10 mos and it's been hell. There are some days I think I can't handle it anymore ...Hang in there and try some of the suggestions on the site.
A big no no in OCD is re-assurance. It just feeds the anxiety.
I swear reading this was like reading something I wrote myself. I've been struggling with anxiety since I was 16. I go on and off medication only going back on it when my anxiety gets back to this point. Recently I've fallen back into my anxiety and started my medication only a few days ago. My main problems are the exact same. I constantly fear that I have a larger problem, more specifically I'm afraid that I have schizophrenia even though I've talked to my psychiatrist and psychologist and I've been diagnosed with GAD. Still I constantly fear that there's something more wrong so I Google symptoms of disorders, mainly schizophrenia, and like you said it only makes things worse. But I also have severe feelings of depersonalization which causes me too look up the symptoms to try and understand why I feel so out of it and spacey. The same thing is true for me as it is for you in that when I'm at work or out with people who do not know about my anxiety I force myself not to think about it and I don't feel this way. Only when I'm by myself and start thinking do these thoughts get stuck in my head and make me feel like I'll never go back to just being happy and carefree. But this is the third time I've "relapsed" back into my anxiety and I remember feeling this way before and everything going back to normal after I was on medication for a while. But when you're experiencing it the thoughts are so persistent they defeat you and make you feel like nothing will ever get better. My advice is to never Google anything no matter how much you want to. It will almost always make you feel worse instead of better. Your post has helped me to feel better knowing I'm not the only one with this specific thought. I hope the best for you I know how terrible this is.
I just seen this and it reminds me o my self but I don't worry about mentiel illness I'm always worrying about my heart or thinking I have a brain tumor or cancer it is a pain in the *** and I'm all ways getting sharp pains all over my body from my head to my feet and all so have the dream feeling and sort of memory loss I've been to the hospitel 5 times in the last 6 weeks and all they say I am fine all so have hade stress test and heart eko done on my heart and all is ok but I can't stop worrying that there is something wrong with me I hate livening like this as I youst to all ways be out with my friends but now all I can do is stay in my room I hate it so much
that is how i feel like im 16yrs old n just started getting them right after my bf aunt n cousin died because of a train accident n i never even met them could i just be totally stressed out because if how he is feeling cause i dont feel like im stressed ever i just have anxiety attacks on my mind all the time and everytime im fine n stuff my head will just start thinking somethin s gonna happen and then i start to have one again im to scared to do anything like ik this sounds weird but if im with friends out of town i start to freakout n think somethin is going to happen it scares me like if im not around my mom which is my only arent i dont feel safe at all even sometimes when i am around her i dont feel safe but i get to scared to sleep cause everything rushes thourgh me n i have melotomin to help me sleep but i am to scared to take it
You literally summed up all my thoughts lately. It's really hard to explain because sometimes I get some of the darkest, most discouraging thoughts I've ever had. Today, they started to go away and I became very elated that I could concentrate again. My shear joy gave me quite a fright as I was thinking that it was a sign of me being Bi-Polar. Either way, my faith has really given me peace, even when I think its unobtainable. I am doing CBT right now, I really don't want to have to end up on medications. This seriously came out of the blue for me. I had my first panic attack about a month ago. Since then, the anxiety really hasn't left.
Uugh! I feel the same way that you do. I think I have discovered a pattern for me. I seem to have a specific trigger. When I get overly stressed and worried, that leads to days and weeks of anxiety and worry. Can't sleep, and the worst, is I take on symptoms of whatever illness seems to be on my mind. I have had heart pains, neck discomfort and I feel like I'm choking, I actually got so stressed I was causing numbness in my legs and arms. My good friend has breast cancer, so now I am experiencing discomforts and "think" I have breast cancer. This all started from stress that just snowballed into me being "sick". I think that I do an ok job with keeping it all at bay. I exercise regularly and I really, really push myself out of bed to do so. I really, really force myself to try to keep a regular routine. I have two sons that motivate me to try to be normal. But it's so hard. It is so hard. Its so consuming. I was afraid of meds too but finally met with a a councelor last year. We traced back the anxiety and I had realized that I had been experiencing this longer than I thought, just in different ways. She also prescribed a very mild anxiety med, which I didn't want to take but this time around I am taking it. It helps a lot and I don't feel groggy or anything. It's pretty mild and it works. I'm a teacher and have children who experience this anxiety...that just about kills me. I know how i feell so it rips my heart apart thinking how a child must feel. The confustion for them is unbareble. Anyway, I know that for me, two things seem to help; exercise (stress release but it also reminds me that a sick person would not be running 5 miles so I'm probably ok) and just admitting it. Saying it out loud tends to help too. And, looking up symptoms of my phantom illness does NOT help in anyway. I force myself to stay away from google and the doctor's office as much as possible. I think that finding positive ways to deal with it, putting in place routines to help makes a big difference for me. I'm in the midst of an anxiety attack period and can't wait to get through it. It is 32 degrees out, but I need a run to clear my mind!! I wish everyone luck.
I suffer from OCD and I'm currently on the "scared i'm bipolar fear" i've also had many fears of being gay, hurting people (including myself) and border line personality. I would research the web for HOURS!! and when ever I started feeling better i would freak out and think all of these things are coming true and its the true me!
But, i'ts not. Just your brain messing with you. Google an image search for ocd cycle to get a better idea of how it works.
ExRP ERP worked for me they say it helps to be on an SSRI to calm the feelings that the thoughts impose on you (which they did for me) It is very important to do more exposure when your coming off the meds too. The meds are only a temporary fix!
Tell your self you are bipolar! and manic or depressed and keep on going about your day like everyone else said STAY OFF google the more you keep researching about them for REASSURANCE the more anxiety will be provoked.
The fears come and go themes change and so does the intensity over time.
they will always be there but less bothersome with help of someone who is trained in exrp or erp.
Hope this helps
Now get up direct your attention to something else.
I know exactly how you feel sometimes its like being n a nightmare but your awake!!! My biggest problem is anxiety and depersonilazation which i have had very badly for the last to weeks,,, went straight to doctors who put me on meds for my anxiety fingers crossed that they will kick in soon, best of luck stay strong as they say things can only get better xx
Hi everyone.. I think im in the same boat as all of you. I constantly worry that i have either bipolR or schizo. My thoughts jump around like crazy. When something triggers my worries i start getting these paranoid thoughts. Keep in mind i have to be triggered to have these thoughts. Like the other day some one was talking about a government conspiracy show and right after i s started having thoughts about my house being bugged with camera.... Ughhh i know its not true but the thoughts are there when there is a trigger. Right now im on lexapro which seems to be helping. But i still think im losing my mind sometimes. Its a really scary thing.
To everyone on this thread: It's very common. All of the details each and every one of you mention, it's all common.
Most of the time....bipolar is not diagnosed to those who fear it. It's a fear because we are so caught up in ourselves and our thoughts, our mind, the state it feels like it's in, the mood swings, and the constant bombardment of stress.
It's very tough. I had a terrible year. I thought 2012-2013 would be great...but then I went to hospitals feeling inadequate for life and feeling like I couldn't press on. Everything stressed me...and I thought I was truly suffering from severe mental illness. Anxiety can offshoot those kind of thoughts and they manifest as fears of schizophrenia, bipolar, or any psychotic disorder etc. It's a terrible feeling.
Every person is different and unique. Each person's anxiety is its own...and it's incredibly difficult to treat and overcome. You feel crazy, out of touch, spacey, like your mind isn't yours, and you feel like the world is scary, you withdraw from friends and family, and you just can't take it anymore.
Anxiety/Depression caused by a multitude of factors can be very disabling... Know that it is the most common mental health problem in America and it's a real *****.
But here is the truth, none of you are psychotic and probably most if not all of you aren't even on the bipolar spectrum. It's just an obsessive fear brought on by the changes that occur with time. When I was younger, i wasn't fearing these things and I wasn't so uptight. These disorders get worse in late teens and into the twenties. And it's a terrible feeling...but it's not bipolar. I have feared I have a personality disorder like borderline because I don't have anyone close to me and my mind is able to pull out thought processes that back up my fears. That is why anxiety and obsessive thinking can be so damaging and hard to deal with.
My advice: try to get connected to family, seek therapy, and change behavior. Many things cause your miseries...one big factor for me is the seasonal patterns. With less sunlight, I suffer more. It'll be okay....it takes effort on your part and it could take medications to help. It's a *****. You feel like life is just not fair...but it will get better...keep the faith.
Hey i'm 14 and i keep worrying if i have bipolar ever since i googled it and when i heard that anxiety can turn into bipolar i got really worried and ever since ive been worrying 24/7 and i have been getting weird thoughts i dont know if my mind is just playing on it :( and ive also had creative thoughts but i thought that was just a normal part of anxiety
I have a different version of this habit, it comes during boring and solitary times of my life but this time really feels like its not gonna go. I can only describe it as a fear over what I fear. As in, I keep having thoughts that this habit is not going to fade away this time and that I have changed since this time last year etc. It involves thoughts such as deja vu of times when I was 'normal', fearful impulses that the habit is here to stay now, as well as fearful thoughts of my future tainted by this habit. The worst part is that whenever one of these thoughts enter my mind, I have to immediately work out how and why it did so, in order to clarify that it doesn't mean a new 'revelation' of the habit getting worse than it already is. If I forget what the thought was then I usually end up in a panicked state for hours on end, unallowed to sleep or focus on anything else until it is remembered, even though I know in my head that it was just another thought. I also have this weird kind of automatic hate for people and even things I see on TV. It seems the more attention I give these habits, the stronger they are and more likely they are to occur. The trouble is that they are so frequent at times, that its more of a constant 'state' rather than recurring thought patterns. Anyone out there relating to this at all?
I am suffering from more or less the same thing as you. I am diagnosed with OCD, panic disorder and morbid depression. I have more or less had it all my life although I was only really diagnosed with it in 2005. I had a minor successful spell of CBT in 2005, but I think that was in part to the realisation of finally being diagnosed with the illness which helped to relieve some anxiety. Within the period of respite I have been successful and built up a large company which employs over 500 members of staff, so there is hope for all OCD suffers out there. However due to the recent stress I have had a severe relapse and its all based on the same issue with what you seem to be
dealing with. I just have this thought going over and over in my head that I am never going to be able to distract myself from OCD, I don't even have a particular intrusive thought which comes with it, just the constant fear of having OCD and I will never pull myself away from it and when I do try to distract myself I just have an overwhelming fear of anxiety and then depression, which then leads to severe panic disorder feeling like there is no hope and I'm going crazy. Things are really tough at the moment.
My comment is probably to late for this post, but I will respond for the others who are suffering with the same thing. First off I just want to let you know that OCD and anxiety come hand and hand. Depression can also arise with the helplessness that you feel. I come from a family that suffers from OCD and let me just start off by saying medication does not help. The side effects of these medications can make OCD and anxiety even worst. My mother suffers from OCD and WAS on medication that messes with her nervous system and caused permanent damage to it. Along with suicidal thoughts and bi polar behavior that the medication actually caused, she flushed the medication down the toilet. You have remember that the people who prescribe these harmful medications are only doctors who are quick to make a buck and probably have never suffered from this debilitating disorder. You need a holistic doctor, go to Whole Foods (look it up), and start yourself on PURE vitamin B's. start on low dosage and increase slowly. Do this with a holistic doctor. Medicine doctors believe in what they practice: medicine. Inform yourself on documentarys on doctors who have cured depression, other mental illnesses, and cancers with change of diet and vitamins. It does not help right away, but will help in the long run. You will have better control. I also suffer from OCD, sever OCD, and have suffered with it since I was five. I was worried that when my parents would walk out the door, they wouldn't come back. Then I was scared I wouldn't wake up if I fell asleep which made for very very long nights at the age of 9. At 11 I became worried that someone would break in and I check the doors and windows over and over for thirty min. until I could convince myself that the doors were actually locked. Then I thought there was going to be a fire or a carbon leak, and started checking ovens and the basement over and over everyday. At thirteen-fifteen, it got progressively worst. I thought I was going to kill my family or sexually asult someone. I knew I wasn't going to do any of these things, but I thought I was. These bad thoughts were vivid and gruesome and I thought I was going to actually act out these horrific scenes. Some nights I would stare at my hands and know that they are actually in front of me but think I'm doing something bad. I'd look myself in the room because I thought I would hurt someone. Today I found this site on my 13yr old sisters iPod, who happens to be sleeping right now. She is scared of the same thing that you are. She thins she has schizophrenia. Another thing that will help is having someone you trust and a deeply understanding person to talk to that will counter your thoughts. A deeply understanding person and a good diet will change you. At 21, im living breathing proof that this will work. I still have OCD but I can control it. What I will tell my sister and what I will tell you is that someone suffers with schizophrenia will not think they have schizophrenia! Nor will they loose sleep about it. Remember that and counter those thoughts
Hey everyone I was hoping someone can please help I'm going thru a hard hard time.
So the other day I smoked some weed and I got super high. I started to trip and have horrible thoughts and feeling while high. My mind was racing and I couldn't control it, and I started questioning what is life and is it real and who am I and I was so freaked out. Even since then I have felt like I've been in a fog, I feel like nothing's real. I keep researching on the Internet because I am afraid that the weed has permententlly made me like this. I have all this anxiety and now keep Having panic attacks because all I keep thinking about is "am I going crazy?!" Or what's wrong with me! My mind keeps having these negative and weird thoughts and feelings. My head will pin and ill feel weird and then ill start to think maybe I'm going crazy, maybe I'm developing mental illnesses. I have suffered from panic attacks and have been on anxiety medicane before. I am just curious how to get back to being my normal self. I want to stop worrying all day if I'm going crazy. I want to get back into my normal state of mind. I'm so scared and I don't want to die or anything. Please help! Thanks!
I can't understand why I get anxiety and edgy and anxious most every day for no real reason. My brain feels weird it gets stuck am the thoughts feel familiar but aren't realty its very scarey. I have a lump stuck in throat most days and I am freaked out because I know I am talking myself into it. I feel like I am going craZY my brain feels like it is unraveling or bouncing and its damaged. I try to calm.myself but I can't seem to. I thought I was having a heart attack, had bunch test all came back normal. On xanax 0.25 1/2 to whole times twice I have been 1/2 three times just started cellexa today is day 5. I'm just scared please anyone.
Its been a few several weeks since I've been feeling the same way, and all was triggered though a panic attack. I also constantly worry about how my heart, and lungs especially since I used to be a smoker, I worry that I will have lung cancer or a heart attack. Its difficult to socialize with friends because I become fearful at the sight of substances, so I remain staying in and trying to find a solution to fix the adrenal fatigue, anxiety, and OCD. One thing that I did find that helped somewhat is taking Omega-3's. So I hope this helps someone :)
I recognize so many of your stories and I'd like to share mine with you.
For me it started about 5 years ago when I was 17. It started with the sudden thought of not being in love with my girlfriend anymore (relationship OCD). The thought popped up in my mind and somehow it felt so real but I knew it wasn't. It made me sick and anxious and I started obsessing about what 'true love' is. From then on it went all downhill. I started thinking of blowing up shopping centres with bombs, knifing people, or hurting myself. Thinking of being gay, pedophile, bestiality, having sex with family members, you name it. Also feeling detached from myself as well. I had CBT for about 1,5 year (no medication) and things slowly went better until I convinced myself it was 'gone'. Of course the thoughts weren't gone but they were not stressing anymore and were a lot less frequent. Eventually I even forgot I had them, so therefore it was over.
But five months ago I moved to Amsterdam and right before I moved I suddenly had a thought about being gay and it grabbed hold of me again. It was actually then when I found out that it is called OCD or 'pure-o', because I googled stuff like 'fear of thoughts' and 'fear of being gay'.
However it got worse and my thoughts started to get more and more crazy. I've also had the bipolar/schizophrenia/borderline/aspergers/ADD/ADHD/depression stuff.
But there is something different going on now. Sometimes I would just have a thought accompanied by fear and I don't even know what it's about, or in other words my thought is too elaborate or too vague to put to words and it causes me the worst anxiety of all. I feel as if thoughts and feelings lose their meaning and it's just very confusing. It really feels as if something is completely wrong inside my head and it causes me to check online even more for symptoms but i can't find any because I can't even describe what it feels like. Even now I don't even really understand what I am saying and that is what makes it even more frustrating. I'm connecting thoughts and feelings in ways that don't make sense. I'm thinking it has something to do with depersonalization/derealisation and I think I have that at times. I'm probably thinking too much about thinking, and 'what a thought is' and 'how do I know I am having a thought?' and 'how do I know if I agree or disagree with a thought?' Basically focusing too much on a thought or feeling until it loses its meaning and becomes something you cannot understand.
Even this weird thing happened to me: I would have a random thought, then I would think 'no this is just a thought and not real' and right after I was thinking that, I would think the exact same thing about that thought until it evolved into a rapid vicious cycle. E.g; "thought>no just thought not real>no also just thought not real>no also just thought not real>etc." Do I even make sense? Haha, I feel crazy even writing this down but in my head it made sense and kept going on for while and caused extreme anxiety.
Fortunately I do believe I'm getting better every week, because my anxiety has lessened in both frequency and intensity. I can't really say how or why, but I guess I somehow managed to tell myself not to worry and check too much and that things will probably go back to normal. (That's also something I obsess about, 'Is this something severe or does paying no attention to it make it go away?')
Anyways, I could write an entire book about other thoughts and feelings I obsess about and don't understand, but that would get me nowhere because it would only make things more complicated and I would sink in it even more. I even believe that coming here and sharing my story with others is in fact a big fat compulsion and causes me to obsess more, so I'm gonna do something else now ;)
Sorry if my story is vague and poorly put together but it's pretty chaotic in my head sometimes.
Mine all started just as the same with Hbrower, excluded are the things that he went to mental hospital, i dont hear things like he did, i never take any medications nor to a psych.. It just that i have a relative whod gone almost crazy because of drugs but hes ok i think..hed just showed symptoms of crazy addict sometimes like, he feels ghosts, he want to learn withchcraft etc. Thats why i think i am like him.. I think i see ghost too, though i know im not. Any diognosis for all of us? It disturbs me a lot. Thanks.
And also i think something bad will happen :(. Im scared! Help us all. Thnkz. Like i said me and hbrower are the some what same it all started in a weird panic attack. But i am not an adapted child. And doesnt live in apartment like him.
The first thing you should do is stop comparing yourself to hbrower. It doesn't matter if you are not adopted or live in an apartment like him. Try not to look for 'reasons' why you have your fears, because there are non other than that you worry too much and want excessive certainty of what's going on.
I feel quite a lot better now than when I wrote my story. Once you can look at your thoughts and fears from a distance you can see what nonsense it is you were thinking and what ridiculous links you make between thoughts and reality.
I know it is very hard to get to that point, but the way to start is to let go of your need for an absolute answer. Accept the fact that you have a scary thought and do nothing with it. For me it helps if you just say to yourself "well maybe it is true, I don't know" Try to challenge your thought like that and let it be. Try to get yourself distracted, listen to some music, read an article about something you find interesting, have a conversation with someone, take a walk in the sunshine, go cooking, running, exercise. I find exercise quite helpful because when you are physically exhausting yourself the mind doesn't really have time to think that much.
Key factor for overcoming OCD is to distract yourself from your crazy mind. LIVE your life, don't THINK it. Eventually you don't care anymore that you have weird thoughts. You've had them before all this happened but you didn't care then ;)
so, my dad a scitzo, im in a treatment program, the other day I started worrying about what if I end up like my dad, & by me having the thoughts the next Moring I woke up & I couldn't figure out why I felt like I thought I was going crazy, it just repeated over & over again in my mind , im 16 & I know im not crazy but my mind jumps around & makes me think I seriously am goin crazy its very scary, im glade I found out why I thought that, but now I gotta find a solution
so, my dad a scitzo, im in a treatment program, the other day I started worrying about what if I end up like my dad, & by me having the thoughts the next Moring I woke up & I couldn't figure out why I felt like I thought I was going crazy, it just repeated over & over again in my mind , im 16 & I know im not crazy but my mind jumps around & makes me think I seriously am goin crazy its very scary, im glade I found out why I thought that, but now I gotta find a solution !!
not everything is hereditary sometimes its about the kind of person you are not where you came from, because my mum used to say she was diagnosed with manic depression when she was 13, I found out she wasn't she just wanted attention from her parents, just like I did when I became a teenager, my parents divorced when I was 3 and I recall new dad, new half brother by the time I was 6, I used a broken marriage to get what I wanted when I started to get smart, I have never had any fears till I had a child at 21 was abused by her father mentally and a little physically now I take medication for anxiety. as Ive grown up slowly and realised that my parents were too young to give advise and I've worried about my mental health but what I know is if youre worried about it 0-10 chance is if you think you're hearing voices other than words of wisdom then tell the doctor the truth, my friend wont talk to me after 20 years because she thinks I have been colluding with the government about her. she has phsycosis. x
Hey I totally feel your pain! I do the same. I ruminate over and over in my head all my supposed "problems", and i'm too much in my own head. I find if i'm distracted with friends, or exercise, those thoughts don't creep into my head for me to analyze over and over until i'm going crazy with worry. I realized this when I have fun, I'm not worried. And, my life keeps going on the same as usual, whether i worry or not.
So i've been trying to find some words of wisdom, a mantra, if you will, that i can say to myself when i start being too much in my own head, analyzing everything too much. I'm still looking for that mantra, but I am trying to talk myself down on my own, and trying to incorporate fun things in my life to do instead of letting my mind go crazy all by myself...
I had the exact same experience. i got really socially anxious when i smoked weed. I have stopped now. And now my biggest fear is schizophrenia. I constantly try and relate all the symptoms to myself so i can notice it occurring in me.I study Psychology at university so that probably doesn't help as i am constantly reading about the issue. Its a fact that weed can bring out anxiety in people. For me it brought out my social anxiety. I was bullied as a child and through my teens and always been worried about what people think of me. I know deep down i am not schizophrenic. And i know you do to as well. Bare that in mind. If you are aware that yours worries and thoughts are wrong and abnormal then you don't have schizophrenia. With that illness you lose touch with reality. With anxiety your grasp on reality is too strong. That's why you worry about it. Find help in a therapist and your family and friends. I hope things work out for you
this is ocd and it confuses you by feelings and false thoughts that you know are false but you can't stop thinking about them and i have ocd and asking others once you know its ocd for reassurance makes it worse even though it feels impossible and you still will some of the time. i went through treatment and recently it came back really badly everything i see or watch somehow morphs into having to do with my ocd and with my friends i can not think about it. When i was in treatment at ucla my therapist who also had ocd made a great comparison to what ocd can be like it is like if you touch a hot stove you know its gonna burn for a second but you can't help but touching it thats what thinking about a bad or intrusive thought is like you know its gonna make you upset but you have to think about it
i had the same thing it is because you have worked on your ocd before and know what is real and what is not your ocd is trying to attack you in any way that it can even if its not desirable which is the one way it is trying to get to me now its knows its too easy to make you upset how it used to because you know the truth so its finding anyway to confuse you
hi it may sound odd but there is a great on line group Freedom from fear group, teaches you how o deal with all of this, and how you get to see it is a bluff, a trick of the mind that we are buying into!!! by NOT giving it any notice, you are not giving it power over you, you learn
to let it me there while you carry on slowly not giving it any attention, not easy, . you don't fuel it and it cant build therefore it gives up and slowly dissipates, do this enough and you will find it comes less and less until it is just a distant memory/ This is the method, Face it, accept you have it, FLOAT and carry on, let time pass. remember that any thoughts that aren't serving you means you are in a set back and need to use the method, you will know when you are out of the setback as you are clear again, each time you achievethis take courage and confidence that you are chipping away at your demon and it will one day be know more. don't be put off that it comes and goes, you are moving forwards and one day will be no more
Think about happy memories. Life is beautiful. Medication only cure symptoms not the anxiety itself. Free yourself from stress. Don't overthink too much. I know it's hard, but I know you can. Exercise,socialize more,have time with family and friends,talk to them,go out. Life is beautiful and so are you. Remember anxiety is not a mental illness. You just over think too much. You're a wonderful person. Smile always.
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