Hi I'm Jo, I'm sixteen years old and as I've said previously, I've been diagnosed with agoraphobia. Most of the symptoms match up and I've had two times in my life where I haven't left the house for around two years. The thing that bothers me is that agoraphobia is a fear of going outside, getting out of the safety zone, etc. But when I was in the house, I felt that I just couldn't leave, I don't remember feeling "fear" or thinking anything along the lines of that. I get panic attacks a lot even now, but it's just anxiousness, I can't seem to see it as fear...
Even I find it a bit odd, but I just can't help but feel that way... So I was wondering if there were anyone else that feels the same as me? Do you feel uncomfortable, inept and anxious over social situations, etc. but not fear?
...Argh... I'm a wee-bit confused... I have long and short term memory loss (reason unknown right now) so I don't know if I've ever been scared before, am I overestimating it as a word too much? Is it possible for me to have a fear without realising it? I know anxiousness is linked to fear, but... When I have panic attacks, they are for no reason most of the time. But with a phobia, it does have reasons...
Do you think I'm obsessing over this too much? I haven't got a clue what to think, I have no memories to know if something started the phobia or not. I find it a bit hard to believe that I was scared of something and didn't realise it... *Sighs.* I'm rambling on here...
Ummm... Yeah... I'm gonna post this now 'cause I'm already starting to think about not doing it...