Just wanted to share my story

Hi my name is Jenny and I am 31 years old I have been dealing with anxiety and panic attacks for about 7 months and I have been in therapy a for about 5 months, I have read everything about anxiety and i still don't believe that all the things i feel are from anxiety. I tell myself I am ok nothing is wrong with me I will be ok but it doesn't work. I constantly think about the physical symptoms i am feeling. It is so hard to explain what i feel on a daily bases. I don't want to believe it is a chemical imbalance, My therapist and family have told me to get on medication and i resisted for months because one i am afraid to take it and two i thought i would get better on my own, so i started wellbutrin and it was awful I got a horrible panic attack and my doctor said a side effect was anxiety and if i couldn't take it to stop the medication so i did. So it has been 4 days of the medication and I was in a better place before taking the wellbutrin than i am know. Sorry to ramble on but I read everyday on here and rarely wright anything and I just wanted to hear anyone else who might relate to my situation and have any advice to share. I have four children and work two jobs and have a husband I keep going for them when I just feel like staying in bed all day. I want to go back to feeling myself again like 7 months ago the day before I woke up and my life had changed with a major panic attack and a trip to the er, I want to be me again like the night before that awful day. It so hard I know life is not fair but it really is not fair. I just wanted to share my story thanks for your time

[lilly31]

YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO WANTS THEIR LIFE BACK I DO TOO ITS HORRIBLE TO BE WITH THIS SYMPTOMS NIGHT AND DAY. YOU TRY TO THINK I GOT THIS IS JUST ANXIETY BUT THE SYMPTOMS TAKE ME TO THINK OF HEART ATTACKS, THAT IM GOING TO DIE ITS EXTREMELY AWFUL! I FEEL YOUR PAIN  

[shugg32]

No you are not the only one. I am 22 years old and I feel like it has taken a toll on my life already and I've only been going through this for 2 weeks now. I have 2 kids and the panic attacks have me to the point that I think I'm not going to be here for them. It always have me thinking I'm having a heart attack. And now I have bad indigestion so that's not much of a relief either. I know exactly how you feel.

[ativan]

Bealeave me your not on your own anxiety brings alot of pysical syptoms (symptoms) that are not nice, just try and tell yourself, there only feelings there not going to hurt me, I find if I get angry with my feelings its helps me, I take myself out for a drive it dosent take all the syptoms (symptoms) away but it just calms me.

[sulmare]

you are not alone, it is horrible, and I think it takes a lot of personal strength to get through it, but get through it you will hun ((hugs))

[cheryl27]

i do understand what you are going through.i have been dealing with depression and anxiety since the age of about 11 or12  and was jusr recently diagnosed by a psychiatrist not my primary.after years of my giving me everything under the sun for depression...prozac paxil zoloft all of them and having severe reaction to all of them.more anxiety sweats shakiness etc. after i had a bit of a melt down my sister finally got me to go to a psychiatrist and got my life saver.i havae been on my meds now for 8 full weeks and i feek absolutelygreat. i am back to myself. and it is not an antidepressant its a mood stabilizerits called lamictal. it is wonderful and i  am very drug sensitive and i can take it!! it helps with the mood swings depression and anxiety.i know the feel to not want to get out of bed or do anything i have 3 children and i wanted to do something about my problem  because i could take being sad and miserable anymore.there is help and there is hope the right meds a nd a good psychiatrist and a good counselor and youll be on the road to happiness before you know it

[Jennifer375]

  I may be mistaken, but it sounds like you have alot of stress in your life between family and work obligations. That makes it very difficult to find any release from the pent up stress, particulary if there have been any emotional issues brewing currently or in the past that havent been fully addressed and overcome. We always want to think we 'got over' whatever (fill in the blank with whatever abuses or pain you might have had to deal with in your lifetime) I know for me my first reason for trying an anti-depressant was childhood emotional and physical abuse. Society as a whole isnt very tolerant of emotions in general, particularly when its an emotional state thats tramatic and one that others 'wished' was just all stories not reality. Women in particular are emotionally expressive creatures, so to feel those emotions cant be expressed due to fear of being dismissed as less than 'mentally whole'.

Others here share your pain,,, and glad you felt compelled to want more for yourself so that you no longer have to struggle with the fear/anger or sadness that your working hard to overcome.

*Blessings to your souls wisdom, may it prevail*

Jennifer

[Jennifer375]

I wish we could edit our posts here...

correction,,,"so to feel those emotions cant be expressed due to fear of being dismissed as less than 'mentally whole'."  

I stopped that thought short sorry..."mentally whole" is painful on every level" ==

end correction.

[savygaby]

Thank you all it is a very lonely road when the people around you don't understand your pain and feelings I just need to know that there is somwhere to turn when I feel the anxiety

[savygaby]

Thank you all it is a very lonely road when the people around you don't understand your pain and feelings I just need to know that there is somwhere to turn when I feel the anxiety