Me too

[Slornt]

I have similar complaints as the rest of you.

1.Head Pressure/fogginess
2. Headaches & migraines
2. Dis-associative tendencies
3. Heart rate shoots up to 192 at Gym
4 Allergies
5 Pain in neck and back muscles
6. Joint pain
7. Pins and Needles in feet and hands
8. Inability to sleep
9. Low appetite but 30lbs overweight (6' 1", 240 lbs, 24% body fat)
10. On and off various ant-depressants. Most recently, Pristiq. It made me feel like I wanted to die.

I had stage 3 testicular cancer in 2003. I had a 8cm tumor removed and experienced 5 months of intensive radiation therapy targeted at my groin and the lymph nodes around my bladder 90 minutes every weekday for five months.

in 2006 I crashed my bicycle and sufferes countless contusions, a shattered wrist, subdural hematoma, epidural hematoma (the fractures in my skull allowed the fluid to escape through my inner ear and  bled out through the fractures in my skull. The fractures created a path from my inner ear and Eustachian tube. 2 months in the hospital. permanant loss of smell (which does not help with the disassociation. it;s hard to feel present when missing a basic scence.) 2 months in the hospital and years of therapy (cogitative, physical, occupational)

in 2008 I had stage four germcel seminoma in my chest. Thorasic surgeries to romove a lot of tumors (the larges was a 3cm tumor on my aorta) and lots of super intense chemotherapy. During the surgery the flattened my right lung and did permanent damage to it with various staples, sutures, etc. They also created a 3cm tare in my diaphragm which caused a hiatal hernia. My Doctor said he had never given anybody that strong a dosage over such a short period of time before. Five days in a row with 9 off (usually in the emergency room for three of those days off).\

In 2009 I decided to celebrrate the shrinking/dead tumor material by buying a new Harley. I crashed it on the freeway. I crushed three fingers, tore our 6 pounds of muscle in my left arm and 8 pounds of muscle in my left leg. Seperated and severly fractures my left elbow, compound fracture of my left femur, tore off my right knee cap, broke my right wrist and suffered additional head trauma. Intensive care for three weeks. several lengty surgeries (the longest was over 12 hours) Hospital for another month and, again, hours and hours of physical therapy plus a few more surgeries (and tons of titanium).

I pretty much feel like **** everyday. I just don't know if I am a hypocondriac, lucky?, cursed to feel this way for the rest of my life, or what.

[Paxiled]

Those crashes will leave a mark -- surgeries don't put you back where you were.  So you have to expect some pain there as you age and should try to lessen it by getting on a stretching and strengthening program for the specific areas of concern and if you can afford it see a massage therapist, acupuncturist, chiropractor, osteopath or someone like that for the rest of your life.  I learned this the hard way.  So some of it is probably you just being unfortunately beat up.  Look at pro athletes -- they're a mess when they age.  Just a cost of living hard.  Other parts of it are less understandable and so might be related to anxiety.  How well do you sleep?  Since a drug cost me my sleep my whole body has become a bunch of pain -- sure, I did a lot of intensive stuff and had a car accident, but being tight and tired all the time takes a toll.  So deal with what you can.

[marilee176]

Wow sounds like you have been thru a lot.

I hope you feel better and I will say a prayer for you,

Happy Easter!!