Need Motivational Help

[cj29]

Hey all:

Still trudging along and fighting that urge to run to the Doc's office.  Still really concerned about the heart, but confronting it.  Ran another 6 miles yesterday and did push ups and sit ups.  I know it doesn't sound like much, but for me it is a very big step.

Do any of you just get so mentally taxed that it seems like an impossible task sometimes?  I was panic free for almost 3 years and it was sooo great!  It has now returned with a vengance and I feel that I have the knowledge to deal with it.  I am recieving counseling, and back on Zoloft.  I tend to be very pessimistic.  Last time I coward at this, but now I am functioning like a normal person, but it is so VERY hard.  I am thankful for this day (and every other day), but what are some of the techniques some of you use to get motivated again?  Again, I am so very grateful for finding this community and really respect all of your opinions.  I guess this is really hard this time around because I thought I had 'beaten' this and now have relapsed back into this pattern.  

[amish1979]

FMXSMKR is right about our attitudes.  There is nothing wrong with being a Pollyanna.  The less negativity you let in, the better.

LOL, I have such arguments with myself while driving because of this!  Someone cuts me off or blows past me or etc. etc. and I curse them under my breath.  Then I try to rationalize why they were driving like that, how it doesn't affect me, to each their own, etc. etc.  Goodbye road rage.

[cj29]

To all:
Thanks...again, it is great to hear from so many people that care!  I am working hard and know no matter how far I fall, it will be that much sweeter when I get up and dust myself off!  (Currently in the process of doing that!)

[Jade59]

I am so sorry to hear your anxiety has returned.  I'm sure that's beyond frustrating after 3 years panic free.  You say you are a pessimistic person.  I used to be too, but 4yrs ago, that all changed.  I started to focus on the positive of every person or situation instead of the negative and it has changed my life dramatically.  I found that it's easier on the body when thinking positive whereas negative thinking can, in turn, cause anger, frustration, depression and anxiety.  I still have anxiety, but I am a much happier person and it's become easier to deal with the anxiety because I am not bringing unneccesary tension from negative thoughts onto myself.  

Running 6 miles is not much? lol.  I only wish I could WALK that far.

Thinking of you..........

[JSGeare]

And another thing...

What do you LOVE to do? What pleases you? Whatever that is, let it motivate you to do whatver it is, simply to feel what the urge is like. Be good to yourself, as you have been to us.

[JSGeare]

That lack of motivation COULD (<-----note, "could") actually be a sign of depression, and depression frequently pals around with anxiety. Nasty pair, those two.

Now, slap yourself across the face a few times and listen to me:

You run, do the sit-ups and have a program going and are, obviously, quite rational. So, what's the bit about keeping away from the doctor? What you want to do here is get a doctor and be very selective about it. This person is an employee of yours, same as the knuckleheads who paint your back porch, shovel the snow, pick up the trash and fix your washing machine, OK? The deal is to get one who fits your program. Maybe some meds, maybe some therapy, maybe both -whatEVER. Point is to get him or her on your team same as you would get anyone else. You've got a "brain" thing going here, so get a "brain" guy -a psychiatrist, same as you would get an attorney or CPA.

Let's get this puppy resolved, yes?

Yes!

[cj29]

Thanks; knowing that I am not alone in this really helps.  Three years ago when I first went through this, I felt as if it was just me.  Seeing the kindness and compassion within this forum is a very comforting feeling.  

[Jerzeegal]

Good Morning,

You're right.. it is very hard BUT you are doing the best thing you can do and that is in your own words trudging along and fighting. You are already doing better this time around because you are continuing to do the things you would normally do which to me shows you are self motivated. :-)

For me I just keep putting one foot in front of the other and try to reclaim my life a step at a time because I know I can do it.

Have a great day