Hey just wondering if I can get some help asap because i can't get anywhere and i can only get help over the internet and im freaking out really bad. There's a list of questions I was wondering about at the very bottom. Anyway, Jumbled vision.
probably not from panic attacks because I have no history an I had a very stable mind set before this.
Or it could be anywhere from a tumour to anything but nobody wants to send me for tests or anything. I just feel like I would like a little sympathy and for somebody to maybe take an interest in this because I feel like its pretty serious but nobody seems to be taking all that serious. It's pretty hard for me to find a doctor or something to really try an do anything about it, They look at it like "Oh well if this guys crazy who cares, I'll have another patient and Its not me that has the problem, I don't know what to tell you, I can't help you" But they didn't even try to help very hard in the first place, didn't even look into it. It's my life, I don't feel like it's something to play around with. I’ll told my family doctor an he doesn't stop to think before he just says “here’s some Aptiva" go home.
Feels like I’m about to lose control of my mind. It feels like I'm on the edge and at the end of my life as I know it. Like I’m going to blackout an not remember or be able to control what happens
a buzzing dizziness, kind of like you had just enough beer to have a buzz on, but a little worse.
everything is a downer all the sudden like dark, its really scary.
I didn't take the Seroqeul because of the Anxiety attacks. I never had Anxiety before or anything wrong like that. I've never had any medical problems. I just started having them and I’m 21. It can't just start out of the blue like this right? There has to be something wrong that I can get rid of. Anyway, I took a Seroquel of my friends because he lied and said it was a sleeping pill. I was fine the next day except a little dizzy and then POW it kicked in and I’ve had it ever since. I feel like I'm going insane. I went to the doctor and before I could describe all the symptoms he assured me it was Anxiety or Panic and gave me 1mg Ativan, then told me to go home. He also however printed me off a sheet of a list of other things it could be that I should get tested for, I took the sheet the hospital and I got a doctor who was 85 and looked like he needed to be on medication. They didn't do any tests, told me I'd be fine and to go home. I tried to make an appointment for a psychiatrist or psychologist, can't remember which one. They made me wait 3 weeks, then the day came and I was so relieved, thought I might finally be getting some help but then they called on the day and said it was cancelled its going to be another 2 weeks, but I can't wait! I'm going insane! Now it is worse. What does a person have to do to get some help?! I had the perfect life before this and I just want it to go away, or at least know what it is, know how to control it, and not let it get any worse. I have a lot of symptoms that match Anxiety and panic but quite a few that I’ve never heard of in any case. I am very, very dizzy now and get a bad feeling that something is going to happen. I have a ringing in my ears and it is REALLY annoying. And I’m shaking a bit all the time too. It feels like when something is to quiet. I am really moody and irritated. My head and body is very, very numb and feels like something is going very wrong with my mind. It feels like I'm on some horrible drug waiting for it to wear off but it never does. I am confused and stressed. I can't focus my eyes. I feel pressure in my head and I get some headache's sometimes. It mostly kicks in at nigh time. But now it lasts all day and night, just much, much, MUCH worse at night. I'm terrified of turning schizophrenic because I don't know what that’s like so I cant tell. I know I’m not but could I be going there? I just want to sleep so I can wake up an feel a little better for a couple minutes. I have to go to bed at daylight before night time because I don't want it to kick in. and I just want to know what’s wrong with me. It kicks in horribly at night and when I start to fall asleep my body has these sudden twitches, like jolts! and I kick or something and then I can feel myself doing it and wake up. It's getting worse by the day. I don't want to take those Ativan because I heard it can make it much, much worse in the long run but I don't want to go without treatment and let myself go crazy. Because I heard it can get much worse without it. I'm also not even sure what is wrong with me. Could you give me some experienced help and opinions? It would be greatly appreated, thanks. I just want this to go away because I know realize my life was perfect before. I don't want it to be over or insane. I feel if I don't get some help today it will get much worse tonight.
These are some of the theories I've heard so far:
"Brain chemistry is so complicated, and still poorly understood. It could be that the dose of Seroquel tweaked something and changed the balance of neurotransmitters. some idea on ways to get back to feeling normal. Seeing a psychiatrist would be much more effective than just seeing a family practitioner. They don't study the brain too much which is probably why he mistaken your symptoms."
"it could be anything from a tumour to anything"
"You should have tests on your brain right away and I mean Now"
"Your Faking it"
Here is some info on Seroquel I found:
Seroquel is an antipsychotic medication. It works by changing the actions of chemicals in the brain.
Seroquel is used to treat the symptoms of psychotic conditions such as schizophrenia and bipolar disorder (manic depression).
Seroquel has caused fatal pneumonia or heart failure in older adults
Stop using Seroquel and go immediately to your doctor at once if you have the following symptoms: fever, stiff muscles, confusion, sweating, fast or uneven heartbeats, uncontrolled muscle movements, symptoms that come on suddenly such as numbness or weakness, severe headache, and problems with vision, speech, or balance.
You may have thoughts about suicide especially if you are younger than 24 years old. It is not safe for anyone who isn't bi-polar or schizophrenic to take Seroquel. You can cause harm to other's and also yourself. Your doctor will need to check you!
Call your doctor right away if you have any symptoms such as: mood or behaviour changes, anxiety, panic attacks, trouble sleeping, or if you feel impulsive, irritable, agitated, hostile, aggressive, confused, restless, chest pains, hyperactive (mentally or physically), more depressed, or have thoughts about suicide or hurting yourself, mentally unstable to the point of breaking.
The bad news is, it may not be reversible. Warn others and try to get yourself of these meds. Admit yourself to a
detox program as your body has now become toxic as a result of the
drugs you have been taking.
So Should I take an Ativan? Will it get worse if I do? Will It get worse if I don't? What is wrong with me? How do I make it go away? What should I do? Can anybody help? Thanks alot.
Long post. Probably why nobody has answered it as of yet. For starters you need to calm down and take a few deep breaths. Brain tumour? I doubt it very much. But if you do need scans done they shouldn't refuse you the scans. Your own doctor needs a good talking to by you. Tell him what you want done. Don't leave his office until he agrees and sends you for scans. Most likely they will come back negative.
I think your own doctor is thinking anxiety. We have talked about such things on this forum in the past. If you are labelled with anxiety they don't treat you as they would if you weren't labelled with anxiety. At times it can be like a curse. If you were ever really ill that is. Because the doctors tend to say ' anxiety, here take these '. Which is no good to us if we are really ill. Hence I suggest you challenge him on the issue.
Ativan is another one of those tablets that your must keep taken after about three weeks of taken them. You come to depend on them. So that part is up to you. But that shows he is treating it as anxiety related.
Hope someone else can have a good full read of this thread. They might be in a better position to answer most of your questions. Or try for a shorter post will just the main questions you want answered. Hope this post has been of some help to you.
I have to agree with snoozer on this one. You REALLY need to slow down and get your thoughts on the same bus!
Please take some time and perhaps write out, in a logical sequence, everything you've been going through. When did you FIRST began to feel the way you do? What was going on in your life at THAT time? What are the MAIN symptoms you're feeling? What meds are you actually taking? Please be as consise as you can so we can take each of your issues and offer you some advice.
The only thing I WILL venture to tell you right now is that anxiety CAN begin at any time in our lives. And it OFTEN comes at us "out of the blue."
I tried very hard to make some sense of your post, but I'm afraid it was so convoluted that I had to give up. I understand that you are very scared and there are many of us here who will be more than happy to help you deal with all these feelings and symptoms, but you need to help us a bit more by calming down and presenting your issues in a less frantic and panicy way. I know that can be difficult when you feel you're falling off the cliff, but for us to help you, you have to try. I will also advise you to stay OFF the symptom websites! They do far more harm than good!
If you feel you can't do that, post to us again and we will do our best to help you.
If I read correctly you are seeing a psychatrist in 2 weeks? Take the ativan. It should calm you down and will not cause addictive problems if you take it short term ie until you are seen by them.
You sound keyed up and freaked out. Try to be calm. Freaking out will not change anything even if you have something physically wrong with you, which I do not, for one moment think you have.
All your symptoms mentioned are consistant with anxiety and yes it can come on suddenly. This doesn't mean they aren't consistant with some other deadly things like tumours, just that that is way way way less likely. Treat the anxiety first and if symptoms remain then maybe they should be checked out. Doctors work on the "common things are most common" rule and anxiety is soooooo common, multiplied by 1000 at your age. Remember that 85 year old doctor has seen thousands of people just like you. They have the benefit of experience.
it was seroquel. And yes it can do that to you. Look up the side effects. It revearses the chemicals in your brain. If your crazy it makes you not crazy, if you aren't well..... it sends you on a ride.
and to Pum:
Would I be going Scitzoprhenic?
Did any scitzophrenic ever start out like this? I don't want to be crazy i don't want to live like this. and honestly my life was perfect before and i would rather actually have it be a removable tumour so atleast then this **** would go away.
I don't know much about schizophrenia but I think a big symptom is paranoia. I think people with schizophrenia don't tend to worry that they've got it because they are too ill to have that self awareness while actually going through an episode, if you know what I mean.
It would not be the end of the world even if you did have it, and again, I don't think you do. Please try not to make everything a catastrophe. You will live your life like it used to be. Growing up is hard and you do change a lot in your early twenties. You might never get your "perfect" life back again exactly as it was, but you will be more mature, understand others who are having a life challenge better, and be a more rounded person.
You've got a lot of exciting life ahead of you and this is just a wobble. Two weeks will not change anything so please try to be calm and wait to see the doctor.
I guess a lesson for us all is that it is never a good idea to take medication that hasn't been prescribed to us. you didn't need me to say that but I have to admit I've been guilty of it in the past too.
I'm not sure where you got your data from. I looked up the datasheet for Seroquel and the side affects were mainly sleepiness and dry mouth. I don't think one pill is the cause of your issues.
Everything is going to be okay! Sounds like you are really having bad anxiety right now by the way your post looks.
1st of all let me explain something, the Dr. gave you ativan to help calm you down, I take ativan when needed and I LOVE IT! Not addicted to it, but when I DO need it, I am so thankful for it. Try taking it tonight before bed while watching tv in bed or something... you'll find yourself getting very relaxed and calm... so don't be scared to take it. You'll probably sleep pretty good too. =)
Also, what are taking the Seroquel for again? Anxiety? Depression?
Sounds to be like you are just having anxiety like I get...
I'm 25 male, and I went to the Dr. last year when this all started happening... I felt scared, my heart raced... my stomach was in paranoid state.. b/c I was so scared... like bad butterflies in my belly... I couldnt sleep at night... couldnt talk correctly... my thoughts were all over the place... I had a downward spiral... and I kept scaring myself more and more... my Dr. gave me Lexapro, an anti depressant for anxiety... I told him I thought it was more than that... I thought I had lymphoma b/c my jaw hurt and my lymphnodes felt soar... I wanted tests done etc.... he finally told me the reason my jaw and lymph areas hurt under my neck was b/c my anxiety... I was so tense I was biting my jaw down hard and didnt even know it...
It was a big relief... my point is... when we have these symptoms we think the WORSE! We research EVERYTHING on the internet and we think we have that or we have that side effect!
I used to take ibeprophen and read on the bottle it can cause internal bleeding.. and I would look at my stools very hard... just irrational thinking man.
I would really think about seeing a psychiatrist.. or a therapist... whatever you want to call it... it really helps... even when you are taking an anti depressant.
I really think you, and I, have just hit a weird fork in the road in our lives... we are in our 20's and life changes a lot... I've got a 1 year old kiddo... I'm the only one working right now... my wife stays at home now... I just lost my grandmother a year ago... big changes... we don't realize what stress can do... it can do a lot.
But there is no reason in this day in age we should feel like this... there is help, and anxiety is treatable!!! =)
Get the whole schizophrenia thing out of your head, that is one of my BIG problems.. I thought I was developing schizophrenia... b/c my real dad was a manic depressive... (i never met him b/c he killed himself while my mom was pregnant with me)... my mom said he had hallucinations and stuff when he quit taking his medicine... I thought "OH MY GOSH! I'M ON A PATH OF DESTRUCTION LIKE MY REAL DAD! AND I'M GONNA HAVE TO KILL MYSELF!? SOUNDS LIKE HE WAS A SCHITZO!"
I've finally gotten over this, b/c my dad didnt think he had a "PROBLEM" most people with schitzophrenia dont.
I'm also not even sure if my dad had schitzophrenia... no one really knows... he might have just went off the deep end... or the hallucinations might have been from him cutting his medicine "lythium" cold turkey...
The point is... you can't worry about it... most people with anxiety know there is something wrong... like you are AWARE that there is something not right with you... people with schitzophrenia have no idea... they are in their own world... they arent paranoid for no reason... they are usually paranoid b/c they think their carpet has microphones in it... and someone is listening to them... or they see hallucinations... and such...
WE HAVE ANXIETY. WE ARE GETTING HELP. =) Remember that.
First of all...you are not schizophrenic, nor will you "turn" Schizophrenic.
Your symptoms are CLASSIC anxiety/panic symptoms, and once you get in with the p-doc (hopefully it is a psychiatrist who can help you find the right med combo), a treatment plan will be forumlated. Anxiety is very scary, but also very treatable, it just takes time and patience.
TAKE the Ativan as needed (as prescribed)...it will make you feel worlds better. Just at least until you get to your appt. You need something for your nerves.
As for the Seroquel...did I understand that you just took it once, and from a friend? If that is the case...it did not "harm" you or cause irreversible damage. Most likely, it triggered a panic response in the way it made you feel. What you are feeling now has nothing to do with a one time dose of Seroquel...it is purely anxiety. You can dismiss that that is the cause.
Hang in there...stick around...we can help you muddle thru this.
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