Panic all day today...feel so alone & scared

[Chrissy1972]

I have been in a constant state of panic since 8am. I cant seem to shake it. My eyes are so heavy I know I cant take any meds to help or I wont make it home from work. Very scared.
now I am even questioning if Imaybe took my paxil twice last night causing me to be off. Or maybe the Klonopin I started last week is causing breakthrough. I take that only at night .25mg. This morning I took .25mg of xanax bc I felt like I was goign to passs out. now Im all clammy, tired, i just want to go home. 3 more hours here at work seem like an eternity. I feel so alone with this. Nobody at my office really understands what i go through nor do i want them to really know too much.  I called my father he is a great deal of support as he also has them but really can control his wothout meds. he is a great cheerleader for me but who wants to be burdoned with there grown *** daughters anxiety issues. Im trying to focus on my work but I have no concentration....just going thru the motions here :(  BAD DAY

[nursegirl6572]

Sorry to hear you're having such a bad day, but I MUST say that you deserve a LOT of credit and need to pat yourself on the back that you have withstood the symptoms and stuck it out at work.  A lot of us in the same boat would have bolted for the door a long time ago.  You truly need to recognize that and congratulate yourself for that!

Secondly...I know I told you this before when you were starting back on the Klonopin that it MUST be dosed twice daily....otherwise it won't be nearly as effective...if effective at all.  I think if you took it properly, like the doc prescribed, you would be feeling a lot better by now.  It will be rough at first getting thru some of the side effects, as you said you are sensitive to meds...but after you allow yourself time to adjust, I think you'll notice a world of difference.  Klonopin has to build up in the plasma to reach therapeutic levels in your system.  It needs to be dosed at least twice daily.  Try taking it in the morning and then at bedtime.  

Hope you're feeling better soon.  Try some deep breathing and ipicture yourself somewhere calming and serene.  This will come to an end like all panic attacks do...it was just a doozy.  The best thing you could do is TRY as hard as you can not to dwell on it...otherwise you will build up your anticipatory anxiety before work.

Hang in there.....thinking of you!

[Chrissy1972]

Thanks Nursegirl

I havent had time off from work to really double dose myself. I was going to start that tomorrow as I have the next 4 days off.I was on it about 10 yrs ago & it worked well. I really think I took 2 paxils last night by mistake. This feels seretonin related. I take 20mg and i think i took 40 by mistake.

[nursegirl6572]

Not that an accidental double dose of the Paxil might not affect you, but it isn't going to cause a "serotonin syndrome" type of event (which is what I KNOW you are thinking...remember, IM an anxious person too, so I know how our brains work, lol).

I think you need to just try to "suck it up" in a sense and just change your dosing schedule of the Klonopin.  It's smart to start it on your days off, in case you are drowsy...but I wouldn't PUT IT OFF till you have a few free days either.

The fact that it worked well for you the last time is probably going to mean it will really help you again.

Give yourself a big pat on the back for enduring today...and just mark it off as a BAD BAD day, tomorrow will be a new, and better day!

[Chrissy1972]

Nursegirl

Of couse I have thought of the serotinin syndrome also though about the seizures coming off xanax can cause and even on a bad day i was only taking .50mg of the xanax. I took about .25 today bc of the panic and when i got home from work i took a .125mg of the klonopin, later tonite i will take .25mg.
You are right tomorrow will be another day and i will make it a good one.
Thanks so much for your input I do truely appreciate it ")