Possible anxiety/hypochondria?

[soxxyrocks]

I am seventeen years old and have been diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder, depression and post-traumatic stress disorder since I was around 6 or 7 years old. I have been on Prozac since then, gradually increasing my dosage to keep the OCD and depression under wraps, but I went from about the beginning of October to nearly Halloween without any medicine in my system. I recently had unprotected sex, unwillingly may I add (I understand this is not the HIV forum but please continue to read). After the first exposure I figured the damage was done, so it happened 3 times after that. (Yes, this is my own fault). I then came down with a stomach bug, that has been going around my community for a while, the symptoms lasted about three days. I then got online and started researching the symptoms of HIV. It stated that you have "flu-like" symptoms approximately 2-6 weeks after the exposure. So I continued researching, and the more I did, the more and more scared I got. I was tested at a local clinic, 6 weeks after my exposure, and the test came back negative. Even though my parents, grandparents, friends, and even the woman at the testing clinic said they felt I was fine, I can not stop fixating on the fact that I may have HIV. The "what ifs" constantly interfere with my everyday life, and I find myself not being able to concentrate, enjoy things I normally do, or even be happy at all. My spare time is spent online researching possible symptoms, which then adds to my worries, and consequently adds to my "what ifs". My main questions are:
1-Is this hypochondria?
2- After the test came back negative, am I obsessing over nothing?
(there are many different "window periods", what if I was outside of it?)
3-If you think about something long and hard enough, is it true you can give yourself symptoms of just about anything?
4- Could this be the result of going without my medicine for so long?
5-I have been experiencing weird eye feelings...is that a symptom of anxiety possibly?
6-Any advice? (I am going to the doctors in two days).

Anything anyone has to say would be greatly appreciated. Its only been a week since my first day of worry, and I feel as though I am going crazy. It is also getting hard for my parents to keep assuring me. So anything would be appreciated.

Thanks a lot.

[soxxyrocks]

The first time yes, was forced sex. But after that I should have known better than to go around him again, and it happened three more times, I didn't want it to happen, but after the first time, I should have known better so I can't call the last three times "forced". I'm not even sure that he was or is in fact infected with HIV.

I didn't completely stop taking my medicine. What happened was the doctors wouldn't call it in for around three weeks. So for these three weeks, I was without my meds, then I started them up again. In your opinion this is the medicine causing my anxiety?

thank you so much for your input!

[Topher7]

Definitely if you are off your meds you could be having effects and they could make tyour anxiety and problems worse. You are supposed to slowly come off and any deviation can cause problems

Since it is one incident I wouldn't call it hypochondria although you have some symptoms. I'd trust that you were tested already and move on in a safer manner. I was confused though. You seemed to have an incident of "rape" and then 3 more times...is that on your own?Or did I read that wrong