Questioning everything I do

[KevinNJ25]

Lately I have been managing my anxiety levels pretty well.  I have noticed that my mind races most when I sit home on my days off from class and do nothing but watch TV and eat and slum around.  All the people I know around me are working AND going to school.  I really want to start working, and to graduate.  I am on the Dean's List and have a 3.56 GPA on a 4.0 Scale, and will persue Graduate School in the Fall.  My parents are nice enough to supply me with money ever since I had my first bad anxiety attack Freshman year of college (Now a senior in my last semester).  Lately though, I have really questioned my every move.  For example I was going to the mall with my friend from home(I come home on the weekends from college a lot more this year then normal).  I questioned why I went and that I should have just stayed home.  Not really sure why.  I've been using a lot of "What if" thinking and a lot of "fortune telling" thinking lately also.  After I control my thoughts I then begin to think I need help because it isn't normal for me to have to stress over controlling my thoughts.  I think a lot of my anxiety comes from the environment around me.  I always want to take a break from college (that is why I come home more then usual on the weekends) but I ALWAYS end up going out with my friends drinking or staying up late.  I got so worried today because I took an Excedrin for a headache that I thought I had a tumor on my brain stem!  Silly I know, but I just feel it is best I get it out instead of holding it inside.  Also, my parents are very helpful with helping me deal with the anxiety, they are understanding but sometime I refrain from telling them how much of it I have because I don't want them to start worrying.
Thanks for any input.

[Paxiled]

Agree.  If you're not in therapy, it's a good idea, though your CBT talk suggests you have been.  Funny, I went to grad school and law school to hide from my thoughts.  It was after I was done I started getting panic attacks.  So keeping busy just to avoid thinking isn't as good as facing it the way you have been.  Keep busy because you like what you're doing, not just to avoid.  

[cj29]

Anxiety can creep up at anytime and the 'what if?' pattern of thinking is very common in my opinion. Have you had problems with anxiety before college?  I know college can be very demanding and stressful, but I actually thought grad school was much more fun and tolerable:).  

Throughout all of this, have you ever thought of talking to a counselor?  A little knowledge of this can go a long way in my opinion...keep us posted!