i also gone through this even though i test negative after 5 months...i'm so regret of my past i feel like fixing again but we cannot do that so as we r having a negative result i think its better to look forward by thinking that God gave us a second chance n from withdrawing our past we could all start a brand new happy life..
Have you gone to the HIV or HIV prevention Forums? They are quite good and the people there are knowledgeable.
If you keep having negative test results but still feel you have HIV you could be suffering from depression, anxiety, OCD - all those fun things.
Having sex with a man does not necessarily mean you're a "fag". Too many negative stigmas around sexuality .... I'd rather have my sons be gay or bisexual and happy than to live a lie.
Obsessing is another way of not dealing with underlying issues - but that's just my opinion.
Good thoughts to you ....
wolf
rare anomally...that sounds pretty good to me. stress and anxiety can cause many symptoms. i have read many post on here about people in the same predicament.
the uncertainty must be very hard to deal with. worried gave you great advice and seems to know what they are talking about regarding the chances of being infected.
i used to have panic attacks about hiv for absolutely no reason. i would think about women i had been with and freak out, so i can imagine what you are going through.
these symptoms are probably all caused in your mind. anxiety can actually make people go blind, it is very serious.
sounds like there is very little reason to be worried about hiv at this point, sounds like the odds are way in your favor. go with it and live your life. eat healthy exercise and you will feel better. the 6 month and the year test are just a precaution one would assume.
best of luck to you and get back to living.
kcdem
I am currently in a similar predicament - in the window period and awaiting an appropriate time fram for accurate results on herpes and hiv....
All i can say is that i have cried, stressed and entered phases of severe depression as i am also suffering from symptoms - constant mild burning sensation of my urethra (for the last 30 days)... everyone says not to worry blah blah
In your case your results seem pretty conclusive, and as a statistician (studying maths at uni) - chance is with you! (3-months according to what i have read - is pretty conclusive despite the RARE anomalies) - I think the fact you had a false positive test would be excrutiatingly hard for someone to understand the pain and anxiety caused!
So perhaps consider that the symptoms you feel are brought upon by stress and that the best option (despite how hard it is) since i am struggling to heed my own advice - is to move forward with a possitive outlook and prevent negative thoughts as much as possible. I have found that excerise helps release some endorphins and the company of others is also soothing.
At least know that my thoughts are with you and that someone truly cares (and believes that it is the best case scenario and you are FINE)!
Good luck