Social anxiety, medication, High school, really need someone to help me.

I have been on zoloft for over a month now, first 25mg for a month. During that time my anxiety seemed to be getting alot better for the first 2 weeks and just went down instead of up from there. So my doctor raised my dosage 50mg and now it seems like its only gotten worse but its weird. You see when I get into social situations my whole body and brain just feels incredibly uncomfortable. The catch? I don't go back and get down on myself about the situation. I don't have any physichal symptoms besides twitching. I just feel like I am unable to act like myself. Before I could at least try but now it seems like I simply just can't. School is coming up on sep. 1 so I don't want to have to switch medicines just to have incredible anxiety when sophmore year roles around. I mean the medicine is working for things like depressive episodes so it leveled out my mood. Really helped with OCD intrusive thoughts that made me have to do things over until I thought right (confusing sorry). My anxiety seems like it is just stuck at uncomfortablness and I don't understand why. Is this normal for medicine? My phychiatrist said sometimes it helps with depression and ocd first but I wasn't sure if she meant usually you start to feel better then have nothing to worry about for anxiety. I am going to therapy all though I havent been in a 3 weeks because of the stress of my anxiety. Its talk therapy and my mom is away at detox. I tell my mom more then I do my therapist and now it feels awkward going. I think I want to Im just afraid because so much time went by. What should I do about this? I can't bring my mom with me now that shes away so maybe my dad hes kind of like me with anxiety. As far as medicine goes I was considering just considering it, taking a benzo as needed in case I have to switch medications or go off them for a little while. I know there addictive and I am really scared to take them but I am having seriouse problems with high school around the corner. I keep almost getting panick attacks in regular social situations with the medicine what am I going to do when school comes around? Sorry this is confusing and long. I just don't what to do or where to turn. I really need help right now. Please any advice, ideas, ect.?

[jul04]

Sorry you are going through such a hard time right now.  High school is hard enough and when you have anxiety it makes it so much harder.  I really thnk you shoud talk to your therapist.  You have a couple of weeks left before school starts and you might be able to learn some coping skills that will help you.  Besides you will be on the medicine for a couple more weeks which might be enough time for it to work on the anxiety.

You might also want to keep a journal.  This might help get some of your worries about the upcoming school year and other things out so they are not bottled up inside you.  I am not saying that it will take the anxiety away but it might help ease some of the symptoms.

I really hope you feel better....

[Relayagain]

Thanks for the advice. I'm just sick of staying in the house when I want to be out doing something. Makes me worry about school and how I'll act then. I'm going to try and do some more activities and try that journal thing.