Terrible anxiety ruining my life

[answerlooking]

My name is mike and i have a big problem of anxiety. Right now, its occupying all my thoughs i cannot function properly anymore. It all started this summer, i had a relation with no condom and i though i had hiv the whole time. I did so many tests and they were all ok. Then one time i vomitted and after that there was a little bit of blood in my spit. At first i didnt make a big deal out of it. Then few months after, the same thing happened. And i noticed everytime i vomit it happens. I vomit very violentl and after that i spit theres a bit of blood. So after that i went to the ENT who did the scope and found nothing. I wansnt convinced with the first one so i went for a second opinion and it was the same thing again nothing again. Its funny cause i suffer from acid reflux but nothing is found on the scope i may be hypochondriac but i know its reflux cause nexium works. So after that i thought well maybe its the osephageal that is bleeding so i went to a gastro who did the scope and found nothing. After that i still wanted to know why i spit blood everytime i vomit, so i went to a General doctor and he said if its not that much blood its not a big deal. So after that i asked him for a X ray of the lungs just to be sure and he did it and nothing was found. He then told me theres blood only because of ruptured blood veseels somewhere and that is should really not worry about it. 3 general doctoirs told me the same thing but i feel something is being missed. It feels like just because i dont know where it comes from i panic. Ive always been someone who likes definitive answers and this time well its like theres no real answer. Is it normal that i panic or i should calm  down even though theres a bit of blood only after vomiting? Like should i say to myself your throat is senbible when you vomit and thats it? What all of you think?

[answerlooking]

its hard to let it go but u need to. The rationnal part in you that is logical needs to take over. As far as your symptoms go i think its all related to stresss. When im stressedmy neck is strange, i feel like my back is hurting and my heart is racing. But once im in a good mood relaxed all of this goes away. And for me its not easy cause i also have acid reflux but not the common diseases. Mine is called LPR it goes all the way back to the throat and its funny cause i have ppis nexium and they work and when i take acid stuff it burns, so i knowe its a reflux. But the docs tell me its not cause nothing is seen on the scopes. Thats where my stress and anxiety was at its peak. Anyways im starting tyo get better now, i promised to somebodyu i love soo much that i would never go to read online about symptoms again. Gradually im stating to get better. I think you just need to chill and tell yourself that youre losing time right now tinking about all kind of diseases. You must go on and enjoy yourself im sure your a nice human being. I hope you be able to go through.

[mandylynn0621]

Oh and by the way, my first fear of disease started as a teen. I thought i had hiv too. It seems to be a real trend with anxiety and ocd. I know its hell and it does ruin our lives. HIV is to be feared  but our mind is amazing because it can actually make us have symptoms of things we dont have.

[mandylynn0621]

I can completely relate to your issues. I have been to so many doctors for 2 yrs all because I got a cold virus and felt like i never healed. I started panicking and reading online so much that each thing i thought i had instead of sticking to the real issues, as in breathing difficulty , stomach problems, dizziness, headaches, severe muscle weakness, circulation problems, bruises etc. I have had many tests for stupid things but now as i become weaker no one will believe me. My chest hurts so badly it burns i cannot breathe, now  i am thinking i have a rare form of breast cancer because of a rash(like you wanted to know that), but the point is there is this tiny part of me that knows i am ridiculous, but the part of me likes answers cannot let it rest...so back to the doctor i go ahhhh!

[answerlooking]

Thanks evryone for your kindness I really appreciate your help cause I need it I just hope I'm able to go through that and be able to live again happy like I was... Once u get in that vicious circle of hypochondria its hard to get out ...the first step is to stop reading md websites about symptoms

[lory124]

also....i was told in the er that as long as the blood is bright red,,,it is just from an irritation. and is a good thing.  plus..if you had any sort of internal bleeding..you would have blood in your stool. when i went in for a hemmoroid they also told me the same thing. (had minor rectal bleeing)l hope this helps. i also am a worrier. glad to see i'm not the only 1. i agree w/ the other post that maybe you should consider help for your anxiety. i have just started taking prozac a few weeks ago because the anxiety is bad. also....vomiting is very common with high anxiety. nausea is usually the 1st sign that anxiety and or depression are creeping up. try not to worry.

[lory124]

seriously...there is nothing wrong you. you need to trust the doctors. what you are describing sounds totally normal. did you consider that it could be your gums bleeding as well? i flipped out when i had blood in my saliva only to find out that my gums are very irritated. of course..i went to the er and they didn't have a clue. had to figure it out myself of course. this also happens if you clench your teeth which you could be doing while you are vomiting.

[RubyWitch]

I think it's long past the time that you accept what all the doctors and all the tests have proven to you, which is that there is nothing wrong! Have you asked these doctors why you apparently vomit so often? But apparently they aren't worried about that either. And it IS quite common and quite normal that after we have vomited quite "violently" that there will be a very small amount of blood from exactly what your doctors said, small broken blood vessels. If this is the only time you notice the blood, you really need to relax!
You say you can't relax without a "difinitive" answer about where this blood is coming from, but you HAVE been given a difinitive answer. Just because these doctors cannot pinpoint exactly which tiny blood vessel is rupurting, they are satisfied that is the source of the blood. That and ONLY that. Their tests would have shown anything else. We have thousands and thousands of tiny vessels and it would be impossible for them to locate THE ONE that ruptured.
You asked what we thought and what I think is that you would benefit GREATLY from some therapy as I think you are dealing with some health anxiety/hypochondria. If left untreated, these conditions, which are HIGHLY TREATABLE, will ruin your life. Trust me on that.
Speak to one of your doctors about a referral to a good therapist.
You have the power to end this destructive cycle.
Peace
Greenlydia