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Terrible anxiety.
For about a couple days now my anxiety has been THROUGH the roof.
My parent's relationship has gone to **** again and they yell, throw dishes, my mom even punched my dad in the arm.
I feel like im out of my body if that makes any sense. Like im not here. Im having thoughts like "what is life" "why are we here"
Im not suicidal or anything but these panic attacks are terrible. I cant eat, I can't sleep.
Im scared im going to lose control. Like i'll do something bad. I know I would NEVER.
That boston shooting or whatever scared me like all those terrible things do cause I get scared that I would do something like that but i wouldnt! NEVER.
Am I dying? I dont know what this is. I want it to stop. I hate these panic attacks. Help please.
My parent's relationship has gone to **** again and they yell, throw dishes, my mom even punched my dad in the arm.
I feel like im out of my body if that makes any sense. Like im not here. Im having thoughts like "what is life" "why are we here"
Im not suicidal or anything but these panic attacks are terrible. I cant eat, I can't sleep.
Im scared im going to lose control. Like i'll do something bad. I know I would NEVER.
That boston shooting or whatever scared me like all those terrible things do cause I get scared that I would do something like that but i wouldnt! NEVER.
Am I dying? I dont know what this is. I want it to stop. I hate these panic attacks. Help please.
Great advice as always Greenlydia.
We do have an Agoraphobia forum here and I think you should check it out.
Oh yes. I do believe almost all of us have fely like we were literally going to go crazy. We don't though. Once you get away from this toxic situation I know you're going to feel so much better.
Please think about what Greenlydia said. Call to see if there's another worker that is not as booked so you can get in more often. It sure would'nt hurt to make that phone call.
We're always here to listen and help anyway we can. Hang in there, okay.
We do have an Agoraphobia forum here and I think you should check it out.
Oh yes. I do believe almost all of us have fely like we were literally going to go crazy. We don't though. Once you get away from this toxic situation I know you're going to feel so much better.
Please think about what Greenlydia said. Call to see if there's another worker that is not as booked so you can get in more often. It sure would'nt hurt to make that phone call.
We're always here to listen and help anyway we can. Hang in there, okay.
We've heard how bad the Canadian health care system can be. While there is much to be said for socialized medicine, there is also much against it. Like the horrendous waiting times to see someone, especially when you need help NOW.
I'm glad you did contact your social worker about getting out of your parents house. I hope she can help you find something quickly. I know the idea of a group home is awful, but there are quite a few, (at least down here) that are geared for young people like you. They are very "transitional" and are not full of drooling old folks in wheelchairs. But perhps a small apartment would be more comfortable for you.
Is there anyway your social worker could work on finding you a psychologist who ISN'T so overbooked? Agoraphobia is a nasty, stressful condition and really requires more than a once a month session if any real progress is to be made.
Until she can, hopefully find you more therapy, please take a look at our Agoraphobia Forum here. It may be of some help to at least talk with other's who are suffering the same thing. They may even have some excellent advice to help you deal and for sure you'll get a hell of alot more support there than you are apparently getting at home.
There are self-help workbooks available on Amazon that might help. I have a friend who had agoraphobia really bad and she overcame it all by herself with just books. I certainly can't promise you the same results, but doing SOMETHING/ANYTHING has to be better than just suffering.
And for ALL of us who have some type of mental issue, I doubt there is a single one of us who hasn't, at some point, believed we were going crazy. Literally crazy. But we didn't and neither will you. THAT I can promise. I know and understand how much you hate feeling the way you do........but you have to trust that it IS going to end, because it will. You must also accept that these things take time, even when we aren't having to deal with a lousy medical system.
The thoughts you are having that question "why are we here....what is life?' These are all very normal thinking patterns not only for your age but because of your agoraphobia. The feeligs of "not being in your body," make perfect sense and 99% of us know EXACTLY what you mean and how that feels. It's called "depersonalization," where things just don't seem real and it's scary as hell. But these feelings won't harm you. It's not a sign of going insane, it's more a physical/emotional response to too much stress. Google it on a reputable site like the Mayo Clinic, or the NIMH (National Institute of Mental Health) They can explain it much better. But that is normal too when you're overwhelmed.
I hope you will look for some self-help books. Understanding what we are dealing with can help so much. They say that knowledge is power and it's true. We are much more afraid of the unknown, so the more you know, the less afraid you'll be.
I just had a thought. Do you have a relative you could go stay with? Hopefully one who would give you the support you need.
If you have an iPod you could listen to music when your parents are fighting. You'd still know, but at least you wouldn't have to hear it.
Right now you are in a very lousy space, but it will change, so you have to be strong and believe .
Write to us any time you need to. We're always here.
I wish you peace
Greenlydia
I'm glad you did contact your social worker about getting out of your parents house. I hope she can help you find something quickly. I know the idea of a group home is awful, but there are quite a few, (at least down here) that are geared for young people like you. They are very "transitional" and are not full of drooling old folks in wheelchairs. But perhps a small apartment would be more comfortable for you.
Is there anyway your social worker could work on finding you a psychologist who ISN'T so overbooked? Agoraphobia is a nasty, stressful condition and really requires more than a once a month session if any real progress is to be made.
Until she can, hopefully find you more therapy, please take a look at our Agoraphobia Forum here. It may be of some help to at least talk with other's who are suffering the same thing. They may even have some excellent advice to help you deal and for sure you'll get a hell of alot more support there than you are apparently getting at home.
There are self-help workbooks available on Amazon that might help. I have a friend who had agoraphobia really bad and she overcame it all by herself with just books. I certainly can't promise you the same results, but doing SOMETHING/ANYTHING has to be better than just suffering.
And for ALL of us who have some type of mental issue, I doubt there is a single one of us who hasn't, at some point, believed we were going crazy. Literally crazy. But we didn't and neither will you. THAT I can promise. I know and understand how much you hate feeling the way you do........but you have to trust that it IS going to end, because it will. You must also accept that these things take time, even when we aren't having to deal with a lousy medical system.
The thoughts you are having that question "why are we here....what is life?' These are all very normal thinking patterns not only for your age but because of your agoraphobia. The feeligs of "not being in your body," make perfect sense and 99% of us know EXACTLY what you mean and how that feels. It's called "depersonalization," where things just don't seem real and it's scary as hell. But these feelings won't harm you. It's not a sign of going insane, it's more a physical/emotional response to too much stress. Google it on a reputable site like the Mayo Clinic, or the NIMH (National Institute of Mental Health) They can explain it much better. But that is normal too when you're overwhelmed.
I hope you will look for some self-help books. Understanding what we are dealing with can help so much. They say that knowledge is power and it's true. We are much more afraid of the unknown, so the more you know, the less afraid you'll be.
I just had a thought. Do you have a relative you could go stay with? Hopefully one who would give you the support you need.
If you have an iPod you could listen to music when your parents are fighting. You'd still know, but at least you wouldn't have to hear it.
Right now you are in a very lousy space, but it will change, so you have to be strong and believe .
Write to us any time you need to. We're always here.
I wish you peace
Greenlydia
I can't. She has SO many patients. The mental health system ***** here its terrible. My worker is off on weekends and shes going to get back to me on Monday. I could never go into a group home that's scary. Im just terrified im gonna go crazy! I hate feeling like this. But thank you
Is there any way you can see your psychologist more than once a month? That's not very often, especially since your anxiety is so bad.
If you're on disability you may qualify for low income housing. Hopefully your social worker can help with this.
If you're on disability you may qualify for low income housing. Hopefully your social worker can help with this.
I am seeing a psychologist once a month.
I am currently on disability for my agoraphobia so it's not even like I can get out of the house but I have contacted my worker as to how I can move out. It just *****. I'm sick of feeling like this. Thank you.
I am currently on disability for my agoraphobia so it's not even like I can get out of the house but I have contacted my worker as to how I can move out. It just *****. I'm sick of feeling like this. Thank you.
I suggest you see your doctor for a complete physical and a referral to a psychologist.
You are describing many symptoms of anxiety, which are no doubt exacerbated by living at home with parents who fighting sometimes turns violent.
You're 22 years old, and I know the economy is very bad, but so is the environment you're living in. I would strongly suggest moving out, even if that meant holding down two jobs. It would be so much healthier for you in the long run.
You most certainly are not dying, but your emotional health is taking one heck of a beating. And only YOU can change that.
Please seek the help you need.
Peace
Greenlydia
You are describing many symptoms of anxiety, which are no doubt exacerbated by living at home with parents who fighting sometimes turns violent.
You're 22 years old, and I know the economy is very bad, but so is the environment you're living in. I would strongly suggest moving out, even if that meant holding down two jobs. It would be so much healthier for you in the long run.
You most certainly are not dying, but your emotional health is taking one heck of a beating. And only YOU can change that.
Please seek the help you need.
Peace
Greenlydia
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And secondly, since your home environment is so unhealthy, I think they should be able to help you find better housing. Even if it's a group home until you get your agoraphobia until control.
To be "stuck" in your home is difficult enough, but to be stuck there with people who are apparently ignoring your needs and causing you such intense stress, you really need to get out of there.
I hope you will have a long talk with the disability people and your psychologist who should back you up on this 100%.
Be strong
Peace
Greenlydia