Terrible anxiety

I seriously feel that I have " HIV PHOBIA".  I have  always had protected sex with guys and every time i get tested anyways and its negative negative negative!  A month ago I had protected sex with a guy who wore a condom and afterwards i saw the condom was intact and had sperm in it. BUt my mind wants to think he gave me hiv and now I am going to die. I had HIV RNA tests done to show me i have nothing but in my mind i feel I still have it. I got a vaginal yeast infection a month after the sex and i feel that its a symptom of hiv. I had a bf after that guy i really liked but he dumped me because o fmy anxiety. He kept telling me I am just "paranoid".  Am i going to have to take a hiv tets every month the rest of my life? I have a serious problem and its killing me.  My mind is starting to tell me that my bf could have given me hiv also and again he wore condoms everytime we had sex.WTF? I am just NUTS?

[greenlydia]

No, you're not nuts, but you're going to drive yourself there if you don't get a grip on this irrational HIV paranoia!
You're smart enough to have protected sex, so you're smart enough to know you're not at risk for HIV.
Since all the doctors you've seen for testing have not been able to convince you that you don't have HIV, what do you expect ME to tell you?
You DO have a problem which is now, apparently, causing you to screw up relationships, so it's time to do something about it. My suggestion is some talk therapy to figure out why you're so paranoid.
I wish you the best
Peace
Greenlydia

[woody491]

I have had ocd for years and went to a trip joint. I shook hands
with one of the strippers when she wa trying to get me to get a
lap dance I said no, but thanked her kindly. I do not know
where her hands have been, I do not think it was front
for hookers, and I wash my hands somewhat after shaking her
hand, but the restroom was was not the best. My ocd has me
fearful of the future.
Jackson

[greenlydia]

Even if this stripper WAS HIV+, you BOTH would have had to have open, bleeding cuts on your hands that came into DIRECT CONTACT to have the possibility of transmitting HIV.
You do NOT have HIV.

You say that your OCD has you fearful of the future. Why not get into some therapy so your OCD will not rule.............and ruin, your future?

A little more advice...........stay out of strip joints! You're right in wondering where the hell her hands have been!

Get help.
Peace
Greenlydia