Hello everyone.
I'm new to this forum and was wondering if you could help. All my life, even when I was little, I've been afraid of getting a disease--cancer or brain cancer is the biggest. Throughout my life I've had strange symptoms that would usually force me to go to the doctor. Once I did, I'd be fine. However, as I got older, I realized doctors CAN misdiagnose. I've been diagnosed with OCD/anxiety. I went through a hard time last year when I thought I was schizophrenic and heard things sometimes and got evaluated by my therapist. Of course, I wasn't and that passed. I studied abroad in the fall and was constantly stressed and anxious about my family and boyfriend back home, as well as freaking out about health because I didn't trust the doctors there. I was always uneasy and panicked. I eventually went through a month of CONSTANT panic about death. When I got back it got better but I continue to be stressed.
When I got back from Italy, I went through a weeklong ordeal of being sore and I thought I had Leukemia. I went to the doctor and he took blood and everything was good. I figured it was dehydration, stress, or caffeine. Then it went away. NOW, I have another problem. I vaguely remember getting this feeling when I was younger, but it's never stayed this long. A few days after going to the doctor, I was bending down to put something in the fridge and it felt like I was moving in slow motion--or as if I was moving underwater. This has been happening ever since (over a month ago) and I'm constantly worrying about it. Now, I try to avoid bending down or go slow when I do. Sometimes I get it when I'm just moving--it's like I'm going in slow motion OR moving underwater (and I also get that "falling" feeling like when you're on a ride with it in my stomach). It's the strangest, indescribably feeling. I went to the doctor and he listened to my concerns and did a basic exam--checked my lymph nodes, behind my eyes with the light, made me close my eyes and stand up with my arms outstretched in front of me and nudged me a little. He thought I was pretty healthy. I even see a therapist and she tells me it's anxiety because I am still going through a TON of stress right now. My best friend, who's known me even says I've always had some ailment. I'm to0 scared to try medication and I want to overcome this without it.
It happens all the time now, even when I'm not thinking about it and that's what scares me. I figured that if it were all in my head, it would only come if I thought about it, not when I'm having fun.
So, if any of you could please give me some insight or if you've felt this way, please tell me. I hope I described it alright. It is really so hard for me to describe.
Thanks so much.