This makes no sence to me.

[whatis_wrong]

Hi, i am going to start off by saying i am a 20 year old male and i have a serious issue. This all started about a year ago for no reason at all. One day i just randomly woke up and my mind kept telling me i am gay. This really may sound like nothing but it had become a serious issue. I have been with my beautiful girlfriend for over 2 years now we have a newborn baby, i bought a nice home, and alot to go with it. I work everyday and support them. But this gotten very bad. I just got out of the hospital yesterday because i drank a bottle of vodka and drank 9 beers and also took a bottle of norco. i have been accused of trying to kill myself because i was close to dying and was unresponsive for a day. This was all because i wanted to clear my mind. i have never been like this, I used to have tons of friends and i was very fit and active. I try so hard to be happy for my family but im so disgusted all the time it seems impossible. This has really effected the way i live my life because i know deep down thats not what i want and i am most certain i do not want to experiment in any way. I have never told anyone this before this is actually the first time its left my mind. i know i didnt do a very good job of explaining but this is very hard for me.. any suggestions will be helpful or just some reassurance that i am not crazy...

[whatis_wrong]

Im not gay.. i know that for sure. i have always been with women and i love it. I dont think im gay and i dont feel? gay i just have thoughts that say "ur gay" or "im gay" and i dont understand why.

[poobear123]

I don't know exactly were it's coming from, When I was 4 yrs old my cuz started to do things to me and have me playing with him ect. I am gay and I don't know if I would be if he had not done that. However saying that I am trying to be happy and the only way I know of doing that is to live the way I am feeling inside that might help . get back with me if you need someone to talk to...

[dboldman]

well I would start by seeing a specilaist that can help you sort this out. In the mean time you have a familiy that depends on you. regardless of your real sexual oriantation they still need you and depend on you.  get good counciling and get started  right now....you have a family that needs you