This one is New for me

I have suffered for Anxiety and bipolar and also boarderline Personility disorder. past few days, I have been getting sick , throwiing up everything I ate anytime I think about my mom. she is big drunk, and she goes weeks with out drinking and then bam it happends again, Usualy it does get to me as bad as it did this time, but I cant help it, I so mad angry Usualy when i get this mad at her I well...I cut but im not doing that....now i just cant eat or sleep...its been two days since I have kepted anything down.....My husband thinks I got food Posioing.....I guess Im asking what should I do?

[kalmkidd]

personally i think you should go to the hospital and explain to them in depth your situation. and let them know what u have. therefor then can see if it is anything physical they can find out and if it is just mental they can give u something to relax. good luck keep us posted.

[msmarlowe]

Thanks I might due that I just wanted to stay away from the ER with christmas...I was just on the phone with her and she has no idea what she is doing to me...I have tried telling her what she is doing...Im done...I just hate the way she makes me feel I hate that she has this kind of control over me....

[JSGeare]

You've got the deck REALLY stacked against you ...so...

let's deal a new hand!

In addition to following kalmkidd's advice to get your tush over to the local ER el quicko, follow up by locating a support group (groups) of folks who operate under the same adverse conditions you do -and that could well include Al-anon. Two reasons: first of all, these groups can offer some real solid practical advice as well as emotional support. Second: they give you a change of emotional scenery as a way simply to interact with other human beings -you get to be "normal."  How do you find the groups? I'd start with the social services department of the local hospital, or the health department. The important thing is to get connected, get that network of live human contact. If hubby thinks you have food poisoning, you two really need to talk about what's going on.

Your situation is critical and miserable, but YOU are very self-aware and in touch and really sound like you've kept your cool. Now -get busy, as advised. And please keep us up to speed!