Ugh! Well, I thought I was doing better...

[torque]

I started off of the week really well. I was exercising and eating right. I felt really good. I have been having some issues with my 8yr rottie.She is our baby! She stopped eating about 1.5months ago. SHe would go in streaks and eat really well, then nothing at all. Well, we finally decided to bring her to the vets- on Wednesday. We found out she has cancer. It is everywhere. He said there really isnt anything to do. He said we could give her pain pills, but she doesnt seem to be in any pain. So my husband decided to just let things go, and let nature takes its course. So, I did so much research yesterday- I have become obsessed with this now. I found that she needs Omega oils and a very fatty diet. So, I have been frying her up hamburg, bacon, been giving her fresh fruits and veggies SHe ate really well yesterday, but only ate a little bit today. I think this last time I tried to feed her, and she turned her nose up to that, it hit me. I think she is giving up. I even bought Esiack (sp?), to sprinkle in her food. Well, I have to try and get over this. I know she is just a dog, but we got her when she was a puppy and really is my child. So, because I have been on an emotional rollercoaster, I have not eaten anything I am supposed to, and have not exercised in the last three days. I just feel blah and dont feel like doing anything. I know there is nothing any one can do for me, I just needed to vent. I try and talk with my husband, I know this bothers him, but because he is a stubborn man, he is just like "well there is nothing you can do, she is just a pet". Well, anyway thank you for listening.

[tanns]

I am really sorry to hear about your dog.  I lost 2 sweet dogs within 6 months of eachother over 7 years ago.  I had them for 14 years and I still am not over it.  It makes me sad and I cry when I think about it.  They aren't "just" pets, they become family.  

You are in my thoughts.....

[suzi-q]

I am so sorry about your dog...I totally know how you feel...my dog (who is 11) is having some health related issues and I am a total mess over it myself.  They are one of the family...and they do nothing wrong and just love you...totally unconditional...don't let anyone say "it is only a pet" (I know your husband is just saying that because he is afraid to cry)...it is your best friend and you and your pal will be in my prayers.

[hatgal]

I'm so sorry for your pain; my cat, I think, i s very sick too.  We've had her since she was a kitten (8 years ago) and she is one of the family - I know how you feel and I agree with suzi-q; your husband is just holding in his emotion, maybe to be strong for you.  That's how my husband is as well, but he will be sad when we/if we put her down.

But, you know, these are natural feelings and not anxiety.  Allow yourself to feel sad, cry, whatever you need to do. But you should start at least try to eat and eat better - even if it's just V8 or you may find yourself over-anxious. I was just telling my 15 year old daughter yesterday (she is suffering from social anxiety) that anxious feelings are very normal and that it is an emotion t hat we all have; it's just that, for us with the disease, if it makes you physically sick, that's a problem.

Again, I'm sorry for your pain and you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers!

[Raine9]

Sorry to hear about your dog.  We have two cats.  My husband is more of the pet person.  I didn't have pets growing up but  i understand that they do become part of your family.  My husband had a dog growing up and kept him until he died of old age.  It was very hard for him when he died.  He had him cremated and still has his ashes.  It's hard now but you will get through it!

On another note.  Sorry for switching subjects.  I read that you are interested in combatting your anxiety naturally.  I wrote you a message about a visit with a psych I had this past week, not sure if you read it. I will cut and paste it here.

I went to see a psychiatrist and to my surprise he supported the idea of combatting anxiety through holistic measures, i.e. yoga, excercise, diet, stress reduction clincs, acupuncture. He also mentioned an herbal supplement called "kava kava" He said that it works for some people. He let me decide which route I wanted to take. This was very surprising. I assumed that all psychiatrists were "drug pushers"!

Anyway, thought I pass that along to you.

Hope you feel better very soon...

[torque]

Thank you everyone for sharing your thoughts. I really appreciate it.I am much better now.  I think the whole initial shock has worn off. We are just taking it one day at a time. That is all we can do.

Raine9- I did read the comment about the doc. I had seen a psychologist- who doesnt use/push drugs. So it is amazing to hear that a psychiatrist didnt talk about drugs. My general doc that I see, is all about doing things on your own. SHe said there is so much you can control with your diet and exercise along with vitamins.I have Yoga and Pilates videos that I am supposed to be starting. I have started eating better, so hopefully things will fall into place. Thank you again, for everyone that replied!!