Whats wrong with me :( ?

Hi im a 17 year old male

My anxiety (Or atleast thats what i think it is) all started after i smoked some weed with my friends in a basement, I was just hanging out but i smoked way more than i could handle, I experianced what i belive to be a panic attack. I could not stop thinking about how fast my heart was beating and it kept beating and beating faster. All i wanted to do was run away, but of course i didnt do that. I eventually got around to telling my friends that i was completly freaking out, after about like 40 mins , they calmed me down enough to go to sleep, I was so scared that i was going to be stuck this way forever and that i had become a skitzophrenic. but after i woke up i felt fine and myself again. and was actually really glad that everything was back to normal.

Then eventrually the ******* i am, smoked again after a week and the same thing happend again i was completly freaking out, it was in a basement again but this time with differnt people and all of a sudden it just took off, i felt as if the walls were closing in on me and that i was going insain. i kept rubing my chest to tell myself that this was happening now in present time because the time got so messed up.

Last time when i woke up the next morning i felt completly fine, but this time it seems as if it never went away.

I tryed to tell myself i was fine and it would go away. But it feels like im experianceing panic attacks or on the verge of one 24/7.

for the last 2 or 3 months i have been feeling really dizzey/ light headed / as if things are not real / tightness in the chest/ as if there is a weird tingling feeling in the back of my head/ pressure in the bridge of the nose, i also zoned out and it would like the walls were moving like this ~~~~ or close in and out <-- this one seemed to go away tho/ and floaters in the right eye... i would be going all over the internet trying to self diagnosing myself, which would almost give me panic attack just because i would get so scared. i was so scared that i was becoming a skitzophrenic and i had to tell my mom/dad what was going on.

My mom explained to me that she went through the same thing and i was very glad because i knew she wasnt lying.

But i still get very scared that things are not real, or as if i am going to get another panic attack again. I also get scared looking myself in the mirror its really weird but i hate it, i think it was because i was looking in the mirror when i was high,

All of this happend, and also my girlfriend broke up with me, That month was the worst month in my entire life and its as if i cant seem to get over it and it haunts me over and over again.

as i write this its giving me bad memeories and i feel like im going to have a heart attack lol im so retarded =p

Hopefully you will understand, and i'm never going to smoke again. so dont lecture me about that!

What do you guys think i should do. I'm new to this site but i absolutly love reading others posts because it gives me a sense of relaxition to know there are others.

[Paxiled]

I would get into therapy.  The weed probably triggered something that was already inside you waiting to come out; that's what weed tends to do.  Now, you're doing what anxiety sufferers do, which is obsess over it and think your whole life will be like this.  Quickly getting into therapy may head this off.  Good luck.

[kimmiem]

hey ive had friends experiance the same thing maybe you could go to the doctor & get sum meds to help i agree with paxiled its more than likely triggerd something! iv heard of it happening to other people, ive also been REALLY paranoid on weed its totally not a cool experiance! i personally dont think u need therapy just go to the doc &be  honest & tell them whats goin on! IT WILL GET BETTER!hang in there!

[AJRC323]

Ask your mom if anxiety runs in the family, that can be a part of it.

[WendyLady03]

It sounds like if your mom has also experienced these feelings, than you had a predisposition for panic/anxiety and the weed just brought it out. I had kind of the same thing, my mom, sister, and aunt have all suffered with panic attacks and anxiety but I was fine until I took an ecstasy pill on New Years Eve. I had a panic attack that night but then I was fine for a week. A week later though I had another panic attack and it all spiraled downward from there......I felt like I was having an attack 24/7 for about a month straight. I also have issues with mirrors because I looked in the mirror when I was high....it's one of the few things I can remember about that night besides all the horrible panic feelings. I got put on meds and am seeing a therapist and I am feeling much, much better. I made a stupid decision that may or may not have led to this panic disorder, but it certainly didn't help things.

Like everyone said, I would get to a doctor or therapist and let them help you out. Anxiety and panic attacks are definitely horrible and very hard to deal with on your own. Good luck!!!

[AnxietyGuy1976]

The fear of the panic attack is what drives many of us, that suffer from a panic disorder, to have them. At least this is the case for me.

We fear what could happen, and so our body and mind make it happen, just as we essentially suggested it to.

Reading up on panic attacks, and talking live (even over the phone) to people that have either been through it, or a therapist that is familiar with it, might get you right back on track.

If the anxiety is mostly from your fear of having one, because you experienced something along those lines, you may find it will be easy to beat the demon. If not, it could have just been a trigger, and you were predisposed. In that case, don't be scared.

Seek help, and you'll quickly find out that not only are you not alone in this, but that it's a pretty big club.

[misseslost]

Thats why i dont smoke weed i hate it! Everyone i know smokes pretty much...when i dated my ex he smoked everyday like 5 time a day and i never touched it. when i smoke i get really paranoid and just want to go to sleep not be around anyone. I had a friend in high school that descibed the same feelings you had the panic attacks everything they told everyone they were allergic to it lol....maybe the were i dont know but i know that they said they had probs ever since they first smoked when they were like 14 and they were still having panic attacks and probs. At that time they were like 24 i think

[AlexRut]

Thanks alot everyone! i will try some of your suggestions, this is great didnt think i would get any response haha, Yea alot of my familey i learned out had anxiety/panic attacks. My uncle and also my grandma and mom. I will talk to my mom about seeing a therapist but for some reason she is totally against getting some meds because she goes on and on about the side effects and how they didnt help her so i dunno. Also yea like all my friends smoke, i was advoiding them for a couple of weeks but now im hanging out with them, and skating and when i get offerd i just say no thanks. Trying to do things that i did before i got these feelings seem to help.  Good luck to all of you as well !!