Ryan did a quick overview of mirtazapine in the post that you were involved in with David. Be sure to check that out - may help...
I totally know what you mean about wanting to feel "normal" again....I miss the old me so, so much - I miss having normal feelings - happy, sad, etc. All I can do is hope that once I'm off xanax, they'll come back. I also have to tackle Ambien withdrawal next, but it normally hasn't been that difficult in the past.
I want to live drug-free...
Thanks for the response. I will speak to my doctor Monday about what is going on since I didn't really start to feel sad, anxious, and depressed until Friday. I want to make sure that this is not just part of the Lexapro withdrawal effects. The only SSRI to truly agitate me is Zoloft as I have mentioned. I sort of feel the way I did on Zoloft as I do now. So I am assuming I also have underlying depression issues as well as anxiety. When I speak with my doctor, I will certainly bring up Remeron. I have nothing to lose at this point I feel so bad. I am so sad and anxious that I feel like I could cry. I never cry. The last time I cried was during the Zoloft "treatment". I am not trying to be macho or anything like that, but it just goes to show how debilitating mental illness can be. I look at all of those people around me and wish I could be like them. Thanks for your input.
-Adam
I could not tolerate any of the SSRI's except for Remeron - mirtazapine....it's different from the SSRI group, but unfortunately, I can't tell you how. (I hope someone else will post why - like Ryan). I became unbelievably agitated on all of the SSRI's.. Once I got past the sedating effects of Remeron as you slowly titrate upwards - I take 30 mg. - it's the only AD that doesn't agitate me. As you know, I had to combine xanax with it but have been slowly withdrawing my dosage over months, and so far, so good.
I asked Dr.'s during my drug trials if these drugs could damage me, also, as I felt like I was losing it when I would try the different AD's. (My doc always started me on the very lowest dosages as I'm unbelievably sensitive.) My docs claim that the SSRI's wouldn't do any damage to my brain, too.
So, Adam, has your doc ever offered mirtazapine as an alternative?
And, hopefully, Ryan will chime in - what do you think of mirtazapine, overall, as an AD?