I suppose my question was weird but thanks for the repose scalp
Thanks so much. And my anxiety is SO much better than what it used to be. I used to be a zombie of fear that couldn't leave his home. I, however, still have spark ups here and there. Health anxiety I always think of the absolute worse scenario.
Also, yes I have tried meditation/prayer. It helps me a lot. I'm also slowly coming off medication, I want to see how I can do without it. I have tried positive thoughts, meditation, payers, and simply telling myself to stop worrying about the "what if" bs and live my life to the fullest and deal with what anything when it comes my way.
Certain songs which speak on this type of stuff has also helped me a lot. I enjoy music.
I think it is very unhealthy to dwell on an anxiety symptom, such as thinking about death especially if you've a predisposition to obsess about things that impact your health. By dwelling on it, you feed it and so it will tend to take up more space, become more prominent in your thoughts and feelings.
Is there ever a time to think about death? I suppose so, but those think occasions are pretty rare. I believe this is largely why funerals are popular (a way to help compartmentalize our feelings about someone's passing, so that we can more readily move on with our lives).
I completely agree with you that sometimes you think too much about things and psyche yourself out.
So, what's the opposite? I think the answer to that is: Meditation or something of that character that gives your mind a restful vacation. Have you tried it? I found it took me 3-4 days to get the hang of it, but once I did it became a valuable calming routine and a way also to Invest In Calm that pays off bigtime by building in an emotional buffer to help ride out the rough spots in one's day or week.