a list of my symptoms for whatever i have wrong with me.

[lily12419]

-racing, mixed, uncontrolled, blurry, strange, nice or scary thoughts that just appear
-feeling like im genuinally not myself
-feeling guilty after slightly being irritable or strange
-coming out saying a lie by accident, or getting my words mixed up or saying the wrong thing or forgetting what i was even talking about
-blocked from my own feelings
-panicking about scary intrusive thoughts and forcing myself to think happy thoughts
-feeling like im gradually getting worse and im going insane or i am insane
-like ive lost all sense of myself
-inpulse of feeling like i have the character of someone else when im talking, like im acting or pretending
-daydream tangents then bouncing back into reality
-feeling like im becoming lazy, messy and unhygienic
-no motivation
-mind block so i forget to do things, or lose track of time thinking too much
-forgetting stupid things like putting a word in a text or forgetting im supposed to do something moments after needing to do it, like getting off the right floor on a lift
-express myself in the wrong ways at the wrong times when i dont mean to
-sometimes totally worked up about my symptoms, sometimes totally desensitised
-frustrated to what is actually wrong with me
-mixed thoughts and blurs distract my normal side to behaving normal
-constant moment of stupitidy
-like my random blurry thoughts are making me act and sound stupid
-like my normal self is trapped behind or under the weirdness
-unfocused
-detatched
-foggy brain
-behaving spaced out then focused, then spaced out again
-feeling asif everyone is looking at me
-getting paranoid about my boyfriend, about friends etc
-imagining strange things like a flavour when i read food off a menu, then feeling totally boggled by what just happened
-shakey trembling hands
-being anxious at the completely wrong times
-feeling stoned or out of it
-de ja vu
-getting words muddled up
-feel like im going really fast paced when anxious
-getting sleepy very quickly
-constant song in my head
-random dreams that i wake up and can remember perfectly every night
-feel like time is just a massive blur, like the past few weeks didnt happen
-heavy feeling in head
-overwhelming feeling of nerves and emotions unexpectidly happen
-random intrusive impulses i have to battle away in my mind
-rarely sometimes hear things wrong or hear slight noises
-confusion to wether i said a thought out loud or not
-dont even know when i feel normal or not
-feel like i sound robotic when i write or speak
-zoning into an uncontrollable day dream then forcing out of it
-forcing myself to be emotionally attatched and connected or show reaction in social situations
-being dinstant and quiet when anxious or worried
-feeling like im dizzy and off balance
-getting distressed and really worried about my symptoms, then sometimes i feel desensitised and that im stuck like it forever and its taking over my normal thoughts to not care and be crazy
-feeling like im acting
-aching neck
-sensitive to light and sound sometimes
-thinking too deep into television shows/films



im sure theres a lot more, but, i dont know what my symptoms link to and as my councilling hasnt started yet i would like some advise if anyone has any please?

[kevin45678]

I realize I cannot eat sunlight.  Just correcting my last post, lol.

[kevin45678]

I have had most of the symptoms you have.  I have had other problems like a vitamin d deficiency which I have corrected.  I found that nutrition has helped me a lot.  I make sure I eat lots of fruits, vegetables, and sunlight.  I no longer underestimate the importance of nutrition.  I also have PTSD, that might be one reason.  I also have insomnia.  I started taking melatonin at night and that has helped.  Ginkgo biloba and ginseng during the day has helped my problem as well.  I see a psychiatrist and psychologist at veterans affairs and they could not tell me what was wrong.  The psychiatrist suggested it is anxiety.  I hope this helped.  

[lily12419]

the thing with me i feel safe, and i feel comfortable inside the house and out, its as if im desensitised its weird then all the worry flows through after im back in reality.
very complicated stuff! but i really hope for both our sakes that our therapists can help us,  and i shall message you if i feel needs be :)

[Crysda]

Hi I am waiting for therapy and feel must the same as you do.
Its horrible not feeling right or normal and so weird it defies description.
I have the dizzy unbalance thing and aching neck etc and loads of other stuff.  
Have become aggorophoibic and housebound which is really distressing as there is no comfort in the house anyway.  Its not like I feel safe anywhere.  feeling unsafe in uyour own head and body is terrifying.
If anyone wants to email me or chat for mutual support feel free and maybe we can get out of this together.

[lily12419]

thankyou very much :) thats a bit of a relief!
i shall keep posting about my progress when it starts
thanks :) x

[nursegirl6572]

They most definitely sound anxiety related.  You've taken the most important first step, which is seeking professional help.  While you are waiting for your first therapy appointment, jot down any questions you may have for the therapist, so you don't forget them during your appt,  You can also start keeping a journal of how you feel during the day, and the things you are worrying about.  That might be a valuable tool in therapy.

Your therapist will help you learn coping mechanisms and different things you can do to address the anxiety.

Let us know how the therapy goes!  Good luck!