anxiety and hormones

[dolphin845]

Last winter was the worst - daily anxiety with off and on panic attacks.  I have spent all summer going to all sorts of Dr.'s to figure this all out.  One of them had my hormones tested - blood tests.  Everything was very low and I was extremely estrogen dominant.  I was put on progesterone cream and within 10 days,  I was feeling like a different person.  Much better.  I found a nurse practitioner who I see now and she has me on bio identical hormone cream.  She was surprised by looking at me blood work that I was still walking and talking.  I was a MESS!  
It's been 6 weeks now on my bioidenticals and I am so much better - progesterone is the calming hormone which I had very little of.  I still have some bad days but they say to give it at least 3 months to fully effect the body and give the body a chance to balance once again.
My problem is....  I have lived with anxiety for about 3 years and it's like my brain only knows how to live in the anxiety state and not the calm state.  My brain will not accept the calmness that these hormones are giving me.
Will this end one day?  Will my brain accept the calmness and stop seeking or stop trying to throw me into a state of anxiety?  Does that make sense??
It's like my body/brain only remembers anxiety and can't accept the calmness.  
I'm also wondering if I still have mild anxiety and it will get better once my hormones are completely balanced.
I see my p-doc in a couple of weeks and I will discuss this with him and see what he says.  He has prescribed valium (which I haven't used since the hormone cream) and phenergan (since I get anxiety induced nausea) and I have used that here and there.  
I get mad at myself and tell myself, "why can't you just accept the new better feeling!!!!?"  

[Valo123]

Your brain and your body work together, if your body functions properly than try to forget worrying thoughts and eventually you will feel fine mentally. A very smart doctor once told me, "all anxiety is, is what you have in one hand and what you want in another". Just be happy that you were able to find a successful treatment for your hormone imbalance, hormones can be very tricky and severely affect your personality.  God bless you!