anxiety can i get ride of it

[alicatssss]

I feel anxiety so much and what to cry alot I just can not get rid of it,it feels like such a waste of time for me and my family i am 33 and just so sad about it. i need support I do not want to keep talking to people who do not understand. I and afraid it will never go away its feels like a private hell. sitting here in tears please if somone has advice.
alicat

[scaredjo]

its hard when people die that are close to you it does make you scared and anxious. im sorry your mum died so young it must have been very hard. i have had many family die from cancer my nan had breast cancer, my auntie and uncle both from lung cancer and my grandad from bowel cancer. funny though i dont worry about cancer i worry about my heart. try not to worry and do get some therapy and maybe counselling to help you deal with things

[alicatssss]

thankyou scaredjo for your response it feels so good to not feel alone its nothing you like to broadcast to people around you that this is how you are feeling. well i am convinced i am going to get cancer my mother died of breast cancer when i was 14 yrs old she was 48 i watched her be sick for 2 yrs i think i have never delt with here death i do not remember her funeral or the few months after it so every ache and pain for somereason now i think oh it must be cancer i make my self crazy instead of just saying i have a ache or pain as we get more as we get older but the other side i think aniety gives you aches and pains. i am so glad to have found this site this support already is so wonderfull i am not alone.
thankyou Ali

[scaredjo]

maybe a therapist could help you, it sounds to me like you need to get things off your chest and need someone to talk to. anxiety is hard to deal with especially if you have a family to care for aswell, you feel alone which then makes the anxiety worse. seek some help and as namaste said now you have joined this forum you are not alone just by sighning in you have made many new friends who understand :-)

[alicatssss]

Thanks for responding I did have a crash this past feb for the first time in my life .i was doing great in life ,started getting more and more head aches thought i must have a tumor got my self worked up and brock down in bed for 4 days crying none stop the doc was good got me a head scan to priove to me that i was fine and everything was fine .i think life had just been building  as life can do two children 2 and 4 years old I own my own clothing store and just got run down so i did go to a stress theripist and got feeling better also i do take clonazapan when nessesary and was so much better but latly i have been very on edge and so scared the crash is coming back i think i fear that place more than death itself why does this anxity happen i just want to feel like me and the more i think about it the worse itbecomes i need to keep going and function but some mornings i shake and then it seems to set the tone for the day i hate this and some times i feel very alone i just want to be me how do i go 33 years and go though all kind of hard times deaths of loved ones and differnt things and i coped and then bam.
It scares me why can i not control these feeling of anxity and tears i have a great life i should be so happy whats happend to me
Ali

[Jikan]

Namaste,

I can relate to what you're saying because for many years I felt the same way and did nothing about it. Only after a suicide attempt did I finally realize that I needed to help myself and not expect help to come to me.

Hopefully you won't get to the point that I did, but regardless of how difficult it is, you need to see a mental health provider who can complete a proper history and evaluation and suggest the appropriate treatment for whatever disorder(s) you may suffer.

This will probably be the most difficult thing you due in your life, but if you truly want your quality of life to change it has to be done.

If you have anyone who supports you ask them for help in makeing the appropriate arrangements.

You can always come here for advice or just to vent, but unfortunately we can't physically be there for you. We can only offer compassion, kindness, caring and our support.

Please get the help you want and need.

Let us know how you are doing and please take care of yourself!!

Michael