I can see that you do feel quite scared at the moment, I've been through the same thing and I found it pretty scary too.
Over time and with help, I've learnt to get control of my mind again because I didn't want to be like it forever either :)
Billythekid27,
I have the same problem as you. i think nearly all the time about how my body works.. from thinking to breathing and swallowing to walking, seeing.. everything really. I fear the worse all the time, i think i will die suddenly. Its very wearing.. But rest assured. I am 30 now. I have had these issues for 18 years on and off. They wil pass. Seek help from your doctor. I havent had a relapse like this for 4 years,. it all started a month ago, but i feel i am getting better. You will get better, as awful as it now, it will pass. but you do need some help, be that meds or/and therapy. .
concentrate on all the positve things in your life... you are so young, the world can be your oyster and it will be.
Good luck
Joapepe x
but its like im freaking about just life in genral like how my body works and space and how every thing was made and **** it scares me i thought was the pot i done almost a year ago i done at least 6 time and i stoped drinking cuse of it and i startd and came back idk what to do im only 17 turning 18 soon and i dont want to be like this for ever
we do think all the time, it's normal, I find the exitement of thinking about lots of things actually makes me want to think about more things and more things and then I don't have enough time to think about it all and I feel anxious and nervous and excited all at the same time!
you can try to help yourself by taking physical control the speed of your thinking??
By getting a piece of paper and writing down what i am thinking, every single word as neatly as i can, at the same time as I am thinking it, helps me to slow my thoughts - i can only write at a certain speed.
(typing the words doesnt help me much, I can type really, really fast, the idea is not to try and write the words as fast as you can, but try to write them as slowly and calmly as you can)