To: everyone
I am feeling the exact same way of all of yous. I am a 17 year old female in Grade 12, about to graduate this year. I started getting these feelings in grade 11- around the end of the year. I felt as if my confidence had completely been wiped out. I used to be an outgoing person, I loved to be outside, I loved to do things with my friends, and family. I loved to be around people. I feel these feelings started after I was kicked out of my house. I had moved in with some friends and my boyfriend. I felt depressed for a little while after that; I then felt like uneasyness around other people. I thought maybe it was just because I was around people I didnt really know, or thought were familiar. I feel its been getting worse---over moderation. It comes for a little while, then dies off... and I feel normal, but I somehow I think of that feeling again, and I know its lurking.. and it will be back. I feel uneasy around people, I cant look some people in the eyes; for a long time, its even hard sometimes for a short amount of time. I feel so judged by other people, and Its like im scared what people think of me, or what they say. I twitch sometimes, I feel really uneasy when people look at me, or stare at me. I also get shakes sometimes, I feel "cold". I walk around a feel a skip in my steps, and I feel like my legs arent a part of me. I just feel so awkward and out of place, I don't know what to do; I know I should go to the doctor---- but please someone tell me what I should say or do? can anyone answer me please. I know for a fact that I am not crazy. I need some hope. the only person I can feel normal around is my boyfriend, but lately I have been getting the feelings AROUND HIM! AND I hate it, because right now I feel he is all I have..
SOMEONE ANSWER PLEASE!