anxiety

when I was young (2-5th grade) I used to get hot/flush in the face.  
I never remember it happening all that much, but in the past 3 years I feel very anxious about being in public; even around some very old friends. I feel very quiet and outside: again even around people I have known for some time. I have not been able to get myself together after resigning from an extremely fortunate job for  what I now know was a very unhealthy relationship that didn't work out. That was 2 years ago. I lost everything and cannot seem to get back on my feet (to even apply for a job). I am very self aware and I was over the relationship shortly after the break up, but I just can't get motivated. I have let my physical health go to the dogs. I don't have insurance so I have not seen anyone about this and when I did have it I could never bring myself to speak to anyone (feeling it was weak etc.)

Any advice?

[suzi-q]

You sound very depressed.  And you seem to have many reason at this time in your life.  I would suggest that you go and have a physical to make sure that you are healthy.  And then go and see a psychiatrist to talk things through and get on the appropriate medication to get you out of this whole.  You stated that you do not have insurance.  Call a local hospital or your city hall to see what services they can provide for you.  Maybe you can even find a doctor who will accept payment at a later time.  I know that it is easier said than done, but you must do whatever is possible instead of just letting your life pass you by while you are succumbed by anxiety and pain.  Please keep us posted on how you are doing!!!  I will pray for you!

[suzi-q]

You are not WEAK!  It takes a strong person to admit that they need help.  When I verbalized my feelings to my therapist about a fear of "going crazy"  she said the people who think they are going crazy are the ones who aren't and not to worry!  It's those who think they are fine that have the problem!

DO IT!!!!