ativan/lorazepam and a big hello

hey guys i am new to this forum, but a veteran when it comes to prescription meds and Anxiety disorder, please add me as a friend if you have similar issues and interests, i like movies, the winter :D traveling and basically want to get better
i currently take 2-4Mg of klonopin (clonazepam) per day which is the same as around 20MG of diazepam valium
i am also very addicted to lorazepam for me it is my crack, i started with just one 2.5MG tablet in 2005 and it went from there, where and how i get them is varied, sometimes it was psychiatrists, sometimes it was friends of friends who knew i was desperate but now its so bad i am using my mothers where she hides them from me, she thinks i do not know where they are but i do.
I also take mersyndol, pain relief up to one packet every two days, thats twenty pills with codeine and doxylamine and the paracetamol which last november landed me in the emergency ward at the hospital
i cannot take this much longer
i was also on 6 x 7.5MG of zopiclone/imovane or whatever u call it a day, now i am down to 3.5 once a night so that is my only achievement

i need help and also wander if anyone else has the same addictions
anxiety is a ***** and causes all sorts of problems including taking pills that cause and get rid of the horrific anxiety
its a vicious circle.....

[mammo]

You need to see a specialist to help you wean off your addictions, and get into therapy to teach you how to cope with everything.  It doesn't matter how many medications you take, if the problem is still lurking inside you.  You need professional help to accomplish your goal, and be referred to someone who can teach you how to deal differently with the anxiety in your life.  One step, one day at a time, and you can do this. Best of luck and take care....