I am a healthy 27 year old nurse with 2 wonderful kids, I have never had problems traveling long distances in car, I have practically done it my entire life with my parents due to my dads job. Well about 8 years ago after I had my first son I started noticing my preoccupation while driving when my son was with me of picturing us crashing and just
The cars on side of me causing us to crash, I figured it was just being a new young mom but now when I drive long distances I just want to jump out of my skin, my heart is racing, biting my nails, clenching the side of my seat, its like I'm secretly bracing for an impact when someone is driving, I am actually starting to complain to my boyfriend to keep on the road or ridiculous things cause my eyes are just fixed to the road. When I drive I'm sitting extremely rigid and straight up with white knuckles sometimes! I live 5 minutes from work so I noticed I don't really get the same feelings, my kids ride the bus to school and then I pick them up 5 minutes home. If I have to drive to my parents which is 10 minutes there, 10 minutes back if not enough time passed from visiting I get like that the ride home. I'm planning to go to new orleans after lunch and I am already thinking about the way I feel and its overwhelming but at the same time this is absolutely ridiculous! Why am I feeling like this? I know this must be an anxiety but I have nothing going on in my life, my life is great, few years ago I went through bad divorce and the kids had a rough time, we all did but we did counseling, I had to temporarily take wellbutrin, lexapro, and ativan but after a year I got off everything but the Wellbutrin and I have been off that for 3 years now. I really don't want to get on anything, I didn't exactly like the side effects, I am willing to try natural things, I just don't know what to do, I can't understand why I feel the way I do, I don't want this to get worse and in 10 years I won't be able to drive at all.