death

Hi am 22 and i think i am going to die at the age of 22. I have to weeks left until my birthday. This is really making me ill. It all started when i watched my brother die at the age of 2. I have ocd, anxiety and depression. Can anybody help me please?

[cheshchesh819]

death is a horrible thing to try to come to terms with,but even more heart breaking when it is someone so close toyou and so young,how long ago did this happen and how,my heart goes out to you,i could never imagine the loss you are feeling,have you seeked professional help,maybe speak to a bearevment councillor,please know that we are all here to help,and there are alot of people on this site who have experianced the loss of a loved one just like yourself and are always willing to lend an ear,so please keep posting.

[mammo]

I am so sorry about your loss, it's heart wrenching.  If you haven't tried therapy I feel this would be a big help in teaching you how to cope with this, and learn how not to worry about dying.  Losing your brother has had a serious affect on you, as it would anyone.  There is a reason God took him so young which I know is not of much comfort, but I think acceptance is important right now. This is an unfounded fear,  you're healthy and your anxiety has you fixated on this. I hate to see people throw their life away with worry, you worry all the time about what "may" happen, only to wake up one day and old person and wonder where the years went. One thing I've learned is that all the worry in the world changes nothing, it just makes us miserable.  Try to focus on all the good in your life, get out with friends, do things you enjoy.  Don't waste away your life on this fear, live your life, try not to miss a second of it because it goes by so quickly.  You're young with a lot of living to do, think about life, not death.  You will be fine, and your little brother is watching over you to make sure of this.  Carry on his memory in a happy life, he will be smiling down at you.  Get into therapy to help work thru this and stop living in fear.  Let's talk the day after your birthday....okay?  God bless and take care.

[jacky29]

Thank you for your help. What you say is very true and i know this. But 1 day i can believe i will be ok and the next i am worrying again. I am on the list for cbt but it takes ages. If i had any friends i would be out of this house believe me. I think its a lot easier said than done.

Anyway thanks for getting back to me, and indeed we will chat after my birthday :)

[seanerr]

Nothing is going to happen to you. Talk to your doctor and get a therapist and try to stay away from meds and you'll be ok. Have a good 22nd. Go out and enjoy yourself. :)

[mammo]

You have friends here, hopefully this helps.

[jacky29]

It's my 23rd lol. And thank you. That is exactly the kind of reassurance i feel i need right now!

[Brooke20]

Wow. I sure have been in you're boat. I'm 25 and I still get the feeling that something bad is going to happen to me to make me not see 26, and I have thought that way for years. Like you my anxiety is coupled with depression. My meds seem to help and so does talking to a therapist, but no one truly knows what it feels like unless they've been in your shoes, and I certainly understand what it's like to feel hopeless, but things aren't hopeless. If you feel that something medically is wrong, then consulting with a doc may give you peace at mind. I find that reading books about my condition and talking to others in the same boat often reassures me that there is hope for help and peace at mind.

[jacky29]

I will bear that in mind :)

thanks