depresion & anxiety ( excessive dreaming )

Hi , i am 23 years old . i have been suffering from anxiety-depression symptoms from my teen years . I cant  sleep more than 6 hours but I always  wake up so tired, i dont have desire to wake up. I continue to sleep , but not proper sleep  , just dreaming  , prolonged dreaming which makes me so tired , unmotivated , irritable, panicky even sometimes i have suicidal thoughts duo to my impulisvity. If i would woke up immediatly and not enter in that dreaming state i am better , much much bettter during the day. i stopped going to university and  i dont work beacause with cycle which countinues whith years. i have been treated with citalopram , zoloft but these didint help me just made my insomnia  and my motivation worse.even i tried to be treated with risperidone but i quiet it after my first dose because of terrible side effects ( couldnt think at all and couldnt stop walking - akathsia (akathisia) ).Then i stopped going to psychiatrist and i abused  XANAX about three years ( i have ignored the fact of addiction because at that time i didnt know anything about the neurotransmitter theory).Then i decided to stop XANAX and i did it. . i had terrible  withdrawal symptoms , My blood preassure went up to 170-100 , i couldnt sleep more than 2-3 ours i day , i had pain in all over my body ( flu like symptoms), panic attacks etc. I didnt go out  about three month. Now it is the third mounth which i dont take any medications except 3mg melatonin for sleep and sometimes pronalolol ( antihypertensive) and cardiovascular exercises . But the cylce still continues. If i sleep well and i woke up before entering in that draming state  ( which usually lasts 2 - 3.5 hours ) i am better ( more patient , more logical , in better mood etc .) but if i dream to much which which happens most of the time i am very bad during the day. I hope you understand what i said beacuse my english is not so good .i need any advise . Please help . Please share any similar experience .

[Paxiled]

First, try lowering the melatonin dose to 1mg.  That should work better than the 3mg and might help with some of this problem.  With melatonin, generally, though not every time, less is more.  Second, the amount of sleep a person needs is very individual.  Lots of people need only six hours, while some need ten.  We're just different.  What it sounds like to me is you're depressed, which is keeping you from wanting to get up.  It's probably the depression you need to work on more than the amount of sleep.

[drifter0213]

i sleep alot when i am depressed