does it ever get easier?

[scarter83]

I had a miscarriage in November last year. After 10 months of trying to regulate my cycle, i became pregnant again. I am now 6 weeks along. I should be happy, but all i can think about is losing my baby again. I can't sleep. I can't concentrate. I inspect my underwear every time i use the bathroom for any sign of blood. My anxiety level is so high, i don't even want to tell anyone about my big news. I have an appointment to see my Dr, but they can't get me in for another month. Even then, my biggest fear is losing the baby before then like last time, and going in to see an empty scan again. Will i ever be truly able to enjoy this pregnancy?

[scarter83]

There is nothing really around here as far as therapy goes. But i have been talking to my family and close friends about it. My husband and i are taking it one day at a time. It seems a bit better now that school has started again. I teach hs. I will keep my head up. Thank you for your encouragement.

[cj29]

I am sorry that you are going through this right now.  I would have to agree that some form of counseling would be a great start to dealing with this anxiety.  First, don't be too hard on yourself.  You have been through a lot and are dealing with it, so keep you head up.  Is there counseling available in your area?  For me, both group and one on one counseling seems to help tremendously.  Just learning about your anxiety and ways to confront it will help you not only cope but deal with it in a constructive and effecient way...please keep us posted.  

[mammo]

I am so very sorry for your loss. I feel anyone would be stressed at this point after enduring what you have, it normal to fear this happening again.  But keep in mind that all this stress is not good for you or the baby, and you need to find a way to relax.....easier said than done, I know.  Therapy could benefit you with this.  Try to look at the positive, you've been blessed with another child and he/she needs to develop in a happy and stress free environment.  One miscarriage does not mean you'll have another, and with the doctor knowing you miscarried with the previous one will make him take extra precautions with this pregnancy.  Often a miscarriage is due to something being wrong with the baby, otherwise there is a lot they can do to make sure you don't endure this again.  Do things to help you relax and take your mind off worrying, things you have always enjoyed doing.  It seems like all women these days don't tell anyone until they are 3 months along, which in some ways is good.  But I think you should let your family and closest friends know as they are your support group and may help ease your worry.  Nothing is going to take away all your worry....it's part of the process but easing it as much as possible is important.  I feel that each day will bring you closer to being able to enjoy your pregnancy especially when you get past the point at which you miscarried last time.  Each day is a step forward!  I think time will help to ease this worry as you get further and further along.  I wish you and your baby all the best and big hugs to you.