no... i know its stupid not to see a doc about this. but its mostly because of my personal and family issues... it all started 2 years back... my father suicided due to money problems. he wanted to start a new business and he gave the money to his brother asking to help him start it. his brother said he would help him buy the materials in whole sale with the money. but he cheated. the thing is i was the one asked my father to start a new one because the other wasnt working out. the first and the last "wish" i ever asked him. he worked abroad with my mom. but that month my mom was with me back in india. people say they heard him yelling and crying on the phone saying that he couldnt do the one thing his daughter asked him. it took two days after his death before people got suspicious and broke into his office and found his body. i was completely broken those days. i believed it was my fault.. if only i hadnt asked him to do so.... i couldnt even mourn or cry over his death because i was scared that if my mom sees me crying it would break her heart even more.
i now know its not my fault but, i still cant erase the regret. its a sob story, i know... but its also the biggest scar of my life.
that was the begining of the road downhill for me. everytime i try do something..... anything.... all i can think is what if i make a fool of myself? what would everyone think of me? im not good enough... and then i would end up holed inside my hostel room. i dont want to talk to anyone about it because i dont trust them.... not to my friends because they would pity me, not to my relatives because they would pity me again, and not to my mom because it would break her heart. i started having back pains and headaches about an year ago. now its turned into chest pains... my heart would suddenly begin to work up all of a sudden and then i begin to have this aching tightness all over my left and right side of the chest. it would only be for a few minutes but its hell. my heart wasnt just beating hard and fast, it was like it was dancing all over inside my chest. i know its anxiety working up.i stopped taking drinks with caffeine after i read about it, but its not much help. i want to get better. i want a normal carefree life but i dont know what to do... im just too scared to even face my problems.
Two years of stress and you don't know why suggests it's time to find out. Ever gone to a psychologist to see if you can figure it out?
The more you over-analyze your body the more frightened you get so you start putting the "clues" together and it becomes a vicious cycle. It isn't easy for everyone to ignore the worry, but if you can the symptoms will disappear. Lots here have worked themselves up and ended in ER where they find out there is no physical problem, so bear that in mind next time the fear starts that it might just be your sweating and tensing up that makes these symptoms into a vicious circle.
If you can't get relief after you try to accept the above, then see your doctor to be sure it is just your fear, and because one on one is a better way to understand it and deal with it.