feeling weird always

[yeahh13]

ok this might seem really weird i used to be a guy who use to go out always be really social but now its weird it feels that sometimes when im neaar people i make not have fun rarely when im sobber bt it does happen when i drunk it happens quite a bit and when im high its constant. i dont smoke no more cos of it.
i dont know what it is i would feel stupid asking a doctor this.
i would really like to have some answers cos its reaally starting to makin me lose it im losing friends i went from the loudest person in the room to the quietest.
thank you for anyhelp

[yeahh13]

this does help but like im no alcoholic like enjoy going out once in a while bt it seems like when i do go out now like i dont get excited like i use to and im litterally convinced tht by some kind of miracle i make my friend not have fun like. it feels like i killed the high in weed so i dont touch tht no more and when im drunk it kinda feels the same. like i was hesitating between paranoia anxiety or skitzofrennia
thank you for your reply

[mammo]

First of all NEVER feel stupid for asking a doctor anything.  It sounds like you may have some social anxiety and the alcohol loosened you up and you became the life of the party.  This is self-medicating and puts you on a slippery slope to an even worse place.  Therapy can help you sort through all of this and teach you to be more confident without having to be high or drunk.
I'm sure the only friends you're losing are the drinkers and ones that get high....let them go, you don't need toxic people in your life.  They had a lot of fun at your expense and you're paying the price for it.  Being the loudest one in the room is not what you want to be because it just makes you the source of many jokes and others laughing at you....and not in a good way.
It sounds like you have taken a good look at your life and realize that things aren't right and that's good.  When you no longer feel the need to drink or be high to be social, you will meet new friends.  Ones that have matured as you are.  Seek the advice of a psychiatrist to help you with this and refer you to the proper therapist.  As we grow and mature we leave things behind and sometimes it's people.  An alcoholic will leave all his/her friends behind because they no longer have that one toxic bond....alcohol.  You sound like a decent guy who wants control of his life and not let chemicals or alcohol call the shots...good for you!!  There are so many of us that have needed help so know you're not alone, and don't be afraid to be entirely honest with your doctor.  Sharing with us is a big first step...the next is to seek help. Your "true" friends will remain your friend because of who and what you are, and you will meet others like this.  Your only connection with most of your buddies is you shared a toxic bond that made you act out of character and gave them lots of laughs....not really who or what you are.  Think of the person you want to be and get help to achieve this and move on with your life.  It's okay not to be the loudest person in the room, having a bit of mystery about yourself will get others curious about you and interested.  You're going to do well!!  I hope this has helped and I wish you all the very best!