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[babygirl460hdz]

Hi  I am also new to this page. My question is why is it that your fully awake but fill like your in a dream and fill light headed and dizzy> i have four kids thy are my world but i fell like i am letting them down cuz i fell this way and some time i fell like i dont want to be here just vanish and see what happens cuz some time i fell like my husbend and my kidz dont need me for nothing. so now that you know some of my story please help me before i do something that i will regeat later. thank you!!!!

[mindy1977]

Okay, I've read your question and I've read the responses.  I read that your husband is old-fashioned and I know that can add to the stress of raising a family if you don't entirely share his views and I'm not sure how old he is, but I know you are still young.  I know the feeling you are talking about and I know the stress that comes with raising a family and with trying to be a good wife and mother.  I was married, trying to raise my two girls and my ex was incredibly abusive (physically, mentally, emotionally).  I know that it is "easier said than done", but you can do this.  Your kids need you, YOU need you.  I lost my girls to their father and I truly thought my life was over, I really thought I should just end my life.  I am still here and I will listen if you need me to, if that's what it will take to get you through.  You HAVE to keep going.  There are hotlines, free counseling clinics and that sort of thing to give you an outlet to vent.  Let us know what you need and chances are one of us can help you get what you need.  But whatever you do, DON'T give up on yourself or your kids.  I know from experience that what doesn't kill us makes us stronger and you even coming here means this is already making you stronger.  You're stronger than you know...  

[nlr_tiff]

I agree with greenlyndia. Get a check up, and this does sound like stress. I would like to point out that it may also be depression. I know that when I feel depressed, I feel as if I am in a fog.

I hope you feel better soon. Please keep comming back for support! We need your input too.

Hugs.

[RubyWitch]

Hello and welcome to the forum.........we're happy you found us!
After reading your post, my first thought was "here's a young wife/mother who is probably overwhelmed with all the roles you must play, the mind boggling amount of responsibility raising 4 kids, the stress all that engenders, perhaps feeling taken for granted, probably zero time for yourself to decompress and I bet you don't spend much time with your girlfriends for the support, understanding and TLC that only our women friends can give us. I don't really get a sense that anxiety is a huge issue.......your symptoms CAN be related to anxiety, but in my humble opinion, I think they are far more indicitive of stress.
I'd suggest getting a really good physical to rule out any organic reason for you to be feeling this way. If that comes back clear, I think it's long past time to talk to your husband about fitting time in your crazy lives for YOU. And not only you, but I'd recommend AT LEAST a once a month "date night" for you and your husband to remember that you're not just "mom & dad." It's so easy to lose each other during these wonderful, but very grueling child rearing years.
I also believe that what you're feeling is felt by millions of mothers every single day and it's incredibly normal. Even the fantasies of just getting in your car and driving away from it all. That's just another sign of stress if you ask me. I thought about doing that almost daily!
My kids.........only two of them.........are long grown and gone, but I can still recall with amazing clarity how it felt to see my husband off to work each morning. I was so envious. He was out in the world, talking to adults, and while I know he worked very, very hard, he didn't have two sticky fingered munchkins latched on to each leg. He got to talk about current events, I got to play 9,000 games of Shoots and Ladders. Thank God for Sesame Street..........I looked forward to it like it was Masterpiece Theatre! It felt like my brain was shrinking, hell, I felt like I was disappearing into the woodwork.
See your doctor.
Talk to your husband and let him know how you're feeling.
Get creative, you have lots of options.
Get involved in one of our Mother Forums.
You'll make it through and I promise you'll look back and laugh.
Did somebody tell you life would be easy?  LOL
Peace
Greenlydia  

[frightenedandconfused]

Honestly i just looked up the term depersonalization and much to my shock it described what i was feeling. I am not saying this is you but definitely call a hotline, even if it is a county mental health hotline, just to talk to someone. I am struggling with something of my own as well and i feel like vanishing and being anywhere but here and anyone but me. You have kids and a husband stick it out, it may be really difficult but you only get one life.