ironic

[surfgirl]

one of my biggest phobias. for a short while, was being trapped on a weak bridge at rush hour.  Logically, it seemed impossible that an old bridge could hold so many cars, and trucks too........that was shortly after my husband died, and one of the few panic attacks I ever had.  I HAD to get off of that bridge.  I was assured by a therapist that would never happen.  Then I watched the news last night.  I am so glad I got over that anxiety, but it just goes to show, there is an ounce of truth to many things.

[fearfactor]

YOU have phobias, and actually had a panic attack?  Why wonders never do cease!  I had no idea you would have a severe mental problem like anxiety when by some previous statements of yours you seem to think that anyone with anxiety is a "neurotic."

[surfgirl]

Caveat.............I am one of the MOST neurotic of all.  I can't believe you haven't noticed.  I also have a daughter who suffers horribly from schizophrenia.  In fact, she is in a lock down ward right now.  Responding well, I might add.  And yes,  when my husband was dying, I was given xanax............after his death, I ran out, and I had a few panic attacks, most likely  Xanax withdrawal...along with my life's events.......they were all on bridges, which maybe was symbolic to me, as a bridge in my life that I just couldn't get over, or burning my bridges behind me, or whatever...... something about a bridge that got to me...I didn't think I could make it over.........I also have a very bad heart and an ICD, and VT and nsvt.......but that is a different matter.....I did get SVT during my attacks..........a little insight can be really helpful, almost like dream analysis.................. and some circumspection too.  lol.

[fearfactor]

I'm glad your daughter is doing better.  Sorry for being a smart *** - you know me...  lol
Yep, Xanax withdrawal can definitely cause panic attacks, I have been there.  That's good insight about the bridge, too.  My phobia is elevators and it's funny because I tend to sabotage myself when I start being successful...maybe I secretly fear "moving up."

[surfgirl]

regardless....elevators or bridges.......it is a loss of control that gets us.   Maybe you are afraid of falling if you make it to the top.   I found hard exercise, the kind that makes a T shirt soaked to the waist, to be the best therapy for me.  It is also an addiction, but a good one.  Now if I could just get off the ambien........I have had insomnia all my life.  I also worked weird hours.  Oh well, at least I have cut way down on the ambien.