my morning anxiety

[woodwise]

Hi everyone , first question here. I thank anyone who takes the time to read this.
so i go to school but its summer now and that leaves me a little to much time.
i have a job, but it doesnt' start until 4:00 and its only 3:00. it's when i have to wait like this that my anxiety gets to me.

i would like to talk about mornings because i know mornings are bad for other people to. i usually wake up about 2-3 hours before i plan, because i feel very sick, anxious and disturbed. i feel almost delusional because i am stuck in a feverish dream. my stomach is empty and cramps but i somehow managed to throw up 3 times this morning. i could only throw up this white foam. i would feel good and go back to bed so the exact same thing could happen again. i had an anxiety attack one one the times i threw up, it felt like i was dyeing because i couldnt take my next breath.

i feel so alone and depressed and each day gets worse, i couldnt meditate this morning becuase my mind was so scammbled and mediatation is the onlything that makes me feel okay.

i did go talk to someone about my anxiety once but i had a lot of trouble talking with him and basically it ended with him saying something along the lines of  "some people can only help themselves" and gave me a lot of books and stuff that didnt help. it scares me more to know i couldnt talk to someone even if i wanted too.

i know i just blasted you all with a lot of bitching in bad grammer but this is all true. Ive never suffered as much as i have latley and would love get any responces

[RubyWitch]

While most of your symptoms are pretty classic for anxiety, this white foam you are throwing up is definitely something you should see your doctor about.
I'm sorry that your one attempt at talking to someone about your anxiety didn't work out. For many of us, we often have to go through several therapist before we find the one we actually "click" with. You don't say how old you are, but if you're on summer break from school, my guess is that you're fairly young. Are you able to talk to your parents about this? If not, is there another adult you trust that you could discuss this with? I think you need to see a doctor to rule out anything physically wrong and if you're given a dx (diagnosis) of anxiety, to get a referral to a good therapist who deals exclusively with young people. There is a great deal of help out there and you shouldn't have to deal with this on your own.
I'm glad you found us and please write as often as you need.
Peace
Greenlydia  

[br2509]

well i really don't have morning anxiety attacks mine normally hit during  2-3 in the morning i start freaking out and have bad dreams..But i have gone to the Doc and they gave me meds.Which i don't take i have tried to deal with the problem myself.But i do get stomach aches sometimes but i have never thrown up from a anxiety attack.But i am not sure why you would be throwing up white foam i think i would go to the Doc and get that checked out.Even though i am not a Doc