obsessing, palpitations, nervousness....

Hello-

I feel like I am coming out of my skin during the holiday season.  I have been somewhat depressed, nervous, having a few more palps then normal.  I am very weepy lateley and also seem to be hypersensitive.  I have been struggling with anxiety for almost two years now and while it has gotten much better I still find times where I am like WILL I EVER BE FRIGGIN NORMAL AGAIN?  I  long for the day to drink a regular coke or eat chocolate and not be afraid I am going to be rushed to the ER for heart palps.  

I also seem to be very sensitive about things.  I question everything people say to me, I overanalyze any situation.  I wake up during the night wondering if my heart palps are going to get the best of me.....I am just worrying in general.  Obsessing is more like it.  

For some reason this holiday season has proved to be a bit rough for me.  I am constantly reminded of a very dear friends death almost 4 years ago.  Our families were extremely close and his widow and I still remain close and I think being privy to everything that she's going thru makes it hard for me to move on.  Not sure what the problem is.

I just needed to vent.  I haven't been on the site in a while and I needed to get some support from people who know what I am feeling.

I want to go outside and start jogging or go to the gym and have a GREAT workout; but am unable because I'm afraid my heart is going to just act crazy on me.  I have put on so much weight because of this.  So that aids in my depression.  As you can see, I am a basketcase-lol.  Help please!

[mamaof6]

Hi :)  I can relate to what you are going through. I couldve written your post almost to a T. I have heart palps for years and they have never hurt me, BUT I still let them get the best of me :/  I also get the racing heart at times. I am trying to drink a lot more water and cut back on my caffeine. Last night I started worrying b/c when I went to bed my heart starting racing a bit. Not real fasst, but it jsut set my anxiety off. I had to take deep breaths and try to calm myself down b4 it went into full blown attack. I try to to let it get to me as Ive had these sx for around 16-17 yrs. My HR will go up to like 120ish and it scares me. Ive been weepy and on edge also lately. Ive had alot going on, and being preggo I guess contributes to it. Like you, Im also scared to excercise out of fear too. I pray alot and it helps. I hope you feel well soon. Take care!

[iamfaithful]

Thanks so much for your post.  I do pray a lot and it has helped.  I know He is the source of my strength.

I used to have the racing heart when my anxiety first began, but I don't get that anymore. However, my palps won't go away.  I am on medication for them because they make me so uneasy!  I get them more when my hormones are acting up.

I know God will make a way.  I am just really struggling at this time.

[mamaof6]

You are very welcome. He is my strength also. Yea, my sx switch around alot, with diff. episodes. This time its racing heart, palps, all that good stuff :/  I notice also arounf "that" time of the month mine gets worse also. Arent hormones wonderful :0  LOL  

[iamfaithful]

I have seen many posts regarding hormones making palps worse for lots of people.  Ugh, it's bad enough to have to deal with "it" but the other stuff on top of "it."  CALGON........ :-)

[enitsirhc]

Oh man all I do is get palpitations!  I want them to go away it's terrible!  I went to the doctor and I make people feel m yheart to see I am not crazy, but they don't feel them!  I do!

[iamfaithful]

It's a bad feeling, I know.  I just keep hoping one day I will look up and they will be gone.  ....Wishful thinking :-)