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hi,
i have been contemplating thie for a while but i realise i really need help, hope it isnt too long.
Ever since i was around 14 i have always been scared of being infected witth HIV probably from the barbers and i dreaded any form of blood tests. Somehow i always tried to shake off the feeling and bought my personal clippers. However as i grew older intomy teens i was very scared of any form of sexual activities because i have always dreaded the HIV virus. In 2007 i had my first kiss with my GF on prom day and it was her first kiss to. Ater high skool i had a couple of GF's and the most we did was kiss and most first kissers. I have alwaysbee er scared of relationships.
My fear was greatly increased the next year when i wanted to go to Uni in Australia and i had to go for tests. The Dr. did a blood test in his office most probably HIV test and my instincts tell me he found something wrong from his facial expression ( my thoughts tho because he was stern faced through out.) Unfortunately i was denied my visa for forgeting to put in some documents and it was well explained to me an i was given the option of re apllying with the docs.
However i dumped the whole Ausie idea and decide to school somewhere else. Then i made the worst mistake of my life probably the cause of my most serious anxiety. January 09 the nite before i left for uni i was with my GF and we kissed and for the first time in my life she peformed oral on me. After that i became so scared because i new she wasnt a virgin like my other GF's i kissed. About a mont into uni felt quite sick but i think it was because of a change in environ.
Havnt had sex till date buh in sept 09 i develope pain in my low left abdomen that lasted a while and i think has gotten me into my present shape the pain was so ba i was put on 2 anti bios and antispasmodic meds which didnt help.
The doc orderd blood samples and believe me i have neveer been back to my doc despit fellin ill. I have been felling so sick for bout three months and i think the HIV is manifesting due to various symptoms i have been felling and have seen online.
I know i am a hypochondiaca and a very bad one and i have anxiety issue too but the recent ill health seems to be more than just anxiety and hypochondria
I am only 19 now. I tried gettin in contact with my GF that peformed oral on me and the day i called her she was felling ill tho she was ok the next day. I just think its her and i know its wrong to label someone like that. She is in a boarding school so i cant get her on phone to seen how she's doing.
Help me i am so scared and getting suicidal thoughts and the anxiety is killing me and i cant do anything.
Trust me i know i am i'll
Still have som many more detailbuh ishould stop now. i'll update u when u reply me.
Thanks alot guys
Help a bro.
i have been contemplating thie for a while but i realise i really need help, hope it isnt too long.
Ever since i was around 14 i have always been scared of being infected witth HIV probably from the barbers and i dreaded any form of blood tests. Somehow i always tried to shake off the feeling and bought my personal clippers. However as i grew older intomy teens i was very scared of any form of sexual activities because i have always dreaded the HIV virus. In 2007 i had my first kiss with my GF on prom day and it was her first kiss to. Ater high skool i had a couple of GF's and the most we did was kiss and most first kissers. I have alwaysbee er scared of relationships.
My fear was greatly increased the next year when i wanted to go to Uni in Australia and i had to go for tests. The Dr. did a blood test in his office most probably HIV test and my instincts tell me he found something wrong from his facial expression ( my thoughts tho because he was stern faced through out.) Unfortunately i was denied my visa for forgeting to put in some documents and it was well explained to me an i was given the option of re apllying with the docs.
However i dumped the whole Ausie idea and decide to school somewhere else. Then i made the worst mistake of my life probably the cause of my most serious anxiety. January 09 the nite before i left for uni i was with my GF and we kissed and for the first time in my life she peformed oral on me. After that i became so scared because i new she wasnt a virgin like my other GF's i kissed. About a mont into uni felt quite sick but i think it was because of a change in environ.
Havnt had sex till date buh in sept 09 i develope pain in my low left abdomen that lasted a while and i think has gotten me into my present shape the pain was so ba i was put on 2 anti bios and antispasmodic meds which didnt help.
The doc orderd blood samples and believe me i have neveer been back to my doc despit fellin ill. I have been felling so sick for bout three months and i think the HIV is manifesting due to various symptoms i have been felling and have seen online.
I know i am a hypochondiaca and a very bad one and i have anxiety issue too but the recent ill health seems to be more than just anxiety and hypochondria
I am only 19 now. I tried gettin in contact with my GF that peformed oral on me and the day i called her she was felling ill tho she was ok the next day. I just think its her and i know its wrong to label someone like that. She is in a boarding school so i cant get her on phone to seen how she's doing.
Help me i am so scared and getting suicidal thoughts and the anxiety is killing me and i cant do anything.
Trust me i know i am i'll
Still have som many more detailbuh ishould stop now. i'll update u when u reply me.
Thanks alot guys
Help a bro.
WOW.
It's always hard for me to accept, in this day and age of agressive sexual education, that someone can be 19 years old and so naive about HIV. Please don't take that as a personal attack on YOU. Your generation has literally grown up with HIV and yours should be one of the most higly educated and knowledgable groups about this disease. There is just SO much information out there, all of it for free! (To say nothing about the free condoms!)
There are three ways you can contract HIV.
1) UNPROTECTED anal/vaginal sex with an HIV+ partner
2) Sharing drug works with an HIV+ person
3) Mother to unborn child
You cannot contract HIV from kissing or oral sex.
YOU DO NOT HAVE HIV.
But you most defenitly have a great many anxiety issues that you need professional help for.............especially in light of your statement that you are getting so scared, so anxiety ridden that you are having suicidal thoughts. That is a HUGE red flag my friend! Please heed it and run, do NOT walk, to the nearest mental health clinic and tell them what you've just told us! There IS help for what ails you, but YOU have to be pro-active in your own mental as well as physical health.
You are a young and healthy young man, but if left untreated, these issues can and often do, destroy lives.
Please get help.
Peace
Greenlydia
It's always hard for me to accept, in this day and age of agressive sexual education, that someone can be 19 years old and so naive about HIV. Please don't take that as a personal attack on YOU. Your generation has literally grown up with HIV and yours should be one of the most higly educated and knowledgable groups about this disease. There is just SO much information out there, all of it for free! (To say nothing about the free condoms!)
There are three ways you can contract HIV.
1) UNPROTECTED anal/vaginal sex with an HIV+ partner
2) Sharing drug works with an HIV+ person
3) Mother to unborn child
You cannot contract HIV from kissing or oral sex.
YOU DO NOT HAVE HIV.
But you most defenitly have a great many anxiety issues that you need professional help for.............especially in light of your statement that you are getting so scared, so anxiety ridden that you are having suicidal thoughts. That is a HUGE red flag my friend! Please heed it and run, do NOT walk, to the nearest mental health clinic and tell them what you've just told us! There IS help for what ails you, but YOU have to be pro-active in your own mental as well as physical health.
You are a young and healthy young man, but if left untreated, these issues can and often do, destroy lives.
Please get help.
Peace
Greenlydia
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