please please help

hi i have posted on here alot and i need to hear from other people about this. i have had alot of different fears since i got anxiety and i am right now watching the today show about that melissa huckaby lady who killed an eight year old girl because they said she was raped at 19 by a police officer but never really talked about it. i had the same thing happen to me when i was little but it was in the family and it scares me an makes me think well look how she turned out is that going to happen to me and i'm so scared of becoming like that. i hate that i feel like this because i should know that i would never do anything like that ever but when i think about it i start questioning myself like well what if you just snapped one day or what if i start getting freaky thoughts and like them rather than being scared of them. i can't stop thinking about how horrible things would be if that happened i want to cry and scream i just want this to go away. has anyone ever had this fear please. and before anyone recomends a therapist i am way ahead of you. i talked to her yesterday about my fear of becoming some kind of mass murderer of some sort and she said i don't need to worry about it but i do especially when i hear stories on television. before none of this stuff would freak me out but now it makes my mind run at a hundred miles an hour. please tell me i'm not the only one scared of this.

[mammo]

If you haven't had feelings of hurting someone, then relax with this.  A lot of us have been abused as children but don't turn into murderers.  You can feel remorse just thinking about it, so you know you're not capable of actually hurting anyone. Instead of feeling afraid when you hear stories like this, be thankful that you weren't affected in this way.  Plus, keep in mind that when someone is being prosecuted for murder, their defense team will dig up anything as an excuse for their actions, when it may not have anything at all to do with what they did!  Instead of worrying, count your blessings.  You sound very caring, accept that you are and would never hurt anyone.  Take care.

[lynn100]

thankyou i never thought of it that way. it really helps. oh and thanks for replying to one of my earlier post idk if you remember. i hate having this but i'm not the only one i know that. i just hate how i can have one fear and then when i'm done with that one a whole new one comes in to take its place. i've talked to my therapist and she has written all my fears down since i started seeing her and she said that my fears may come from having a possible fear of not being in control.  because my fears have gone from going crazy, to getting scared when people talk about possessions from ghost and stuff i know stupid but anyways, then it went to schizophrenia and now this. so would that make sence