I need advice. badly.
I have been suffering for the better part of the last year with what I think is a combination of Depression and general anxiety. I have been waiting for months on a waiting list to see a counselor, but in the mean time I really need help. I am almost 3 months pregnant and it seems like my anxiety problems are getting worse. I don't have any "triggers" per se, but my symptoms are debillitating to me. I feel my heart POUNDING all the time. I can feel my heart beat out of rhythm, it feels like my chest is heavy. It honestly feels like my head is vibrating ... I dont know how else to describe it. I hear ringing in my ears, my vision gets blotchy sometimes. I have an ache right behind my right ear that only hurts (and boy does it freaking hurt) when i sneeze, or otherwise put pressure in my head. I feel "flutters" in my chest ... almost like the muscles in my chest are spasming or something. I get dizzy often, I get confused often, I don't laugh, I don't feel anything really except despair and loneliness because I can't seem to get any help. I don't have any interest in anything anymore, I never want to do anything - not read, listen to music, watch tv, play with my children-nothing. I have a hard time sleeping at night and I have nightmares often. I always seem to have the same expression on my face. I am very very worried that if I don't get help soon that terrible things will happen. I wanted to know if anyone else suffers like this and if there are any drugs that are safe to take during pregnancy ( I can't take SSRI's due to side effects). It's not as simple as talking yourself out of it, that just doesn't work. I don't have full blown panic attacks ... just these horrible general symptoms that creep up and don't go away. please someone help me.