questionable anxiety

I am very scared, I am not sure what it is I have. It is severe however, I can not put into words, except I feel like I can not cope much more. My mind races all the time with thoughts of i can not make it ,I am crazy ,insane,not going to make it,nuts,I count by sevens's,the minutes bug me on the clock, i feel time is going too fast, I just can not make the connection to anything in particular that maybe causing these symptoms. I do have a thyroid problem but I doubt it is that. I have gained 50 lbs from a previous med. of seraquil, which I no longer take, that messed up my self image.I have admitted myself to 5 different psychiatric hosptials hoping for answers and help, i did not get any. If this is my own doing I am in big trouble as I can not make it go away no matter what I do and do not want to live like this the whole rest of my life. I can not put together what it feels like just fear ,my heart races along with these thoughts. Please help me if you can. I was recently started on Geodon 40Mg. I already take celexa 45 mg, lamictal 200 mg.,synthroid 1 mg.,mbuspar 30 mg twice day(just increased), vistrail 30 mg. 3 times a day. trazadone 200 mg at night, topamax 100 mg at night, I think that is it. Any imput would be helpful.
Thank you so much
I need to know there is hope somewhere.

[ava10]

It diffently sounds like you have anxiety. The racing thoughts are called obsessive, scary thoughts. and yes it is normal for your heart to race when you have those thoughts. I have dealt with the same thing.  I am here if you need to talk.

[lowT]

I know exactly how you feel i have been suffering from what the doctors tell me is chronic generalized anxiety disorder for almost 2 yrs, i have seen so many different doctors and had so many tests but nothing has helped.
The only thing that gets me through is the hope that tomorrow will be the day i start to get better.