say whats on my mind

[base09]

okay friends i need to say whats in my mind i am tryin to belive in all my heart that this is anxiety and i want it to be anxiety if u dont allready know look at all my other post and read what ive said and my symptoms but anyways i read through this forum and cant find nothin to make me belive this is anxiety cuz i tell myself everyday that this is anxiety and nothing else and instead of gettin better i get worse these sensations and symptoms dont go away no matter what i try i was in therapy for six months and all we did was debate on wether or not this was anxiety and i kept tellin myself this is anxiety but it never worked it did sometimes but not really actually at one point i was convinced this was anxiety and i got better for a couple of days but not realy i keep running to the er all the time and i keep goin back for the same stuff so now i feel like they just gave me a label and since i kept on coming back that all the time they just thought i was losin it and had severe anxiety i go to the er cuz i dont have insurance and no job cuz my symptoms are so bad ive lost three jobs and cant work i dont even now how to explain half of my symptoms but im tryin to tell myself that this is my anxiety but i dont have the claSSIC SYMPTOMS of anxiety mine are different and my therapist keeps tellin me its anxiety but how can this be i have these muscle twitches and spasms all over my body constantly all day all over they dont hurt but u can feel them pulling and see them twitching and jerking all day ill move a CERTAIN WAY and it will set them of in that spot i can be sittin here and have them in three or four different spots at the same time is this bfs or something serious and does anyone else get them this severe and no its not my potassium ive been checked and i get this overwelming feelings that im gonna collapse like a weak kind of feeling like out of nowhere i feel like im gonna drop out and i get real hot and i have to keep my hand on my back like my head also feels weird like there is a bubble in there on the top of my head but i dont know how to explain this but its so debilitating that i cant work and i get these drop out feelings all day and i dont get lightheaded or nothing i just plainly feel like im gonna like fall out i get so tensed up and my teeth are grinding so hard all day and when i do this i can barley walk cuz im really hot and i just feel like im gonna drop like a weak but not a weak feeling but anyways do yhall still think this is anxiety and can anxiety do all of this this bad and can anxiety create these twitches all over me all day constantly all day all over nonstop and those really scare me cuz they are all over aND in some places especially in my legs they are in the saME spots all day but can anxiety make these twitches like this severe

[peggy64]

Have you had your thyroid checked? That really made me feel like I was going insane. I kept telling this friend of mine, I'm losing my mind.

My TSH was above the normal range and  I was so symptomatic. Even after treatment it has been a rough road.

Calm down, when you feel those feelings come over, try diahphramatic breathing. That helps me.

[crystalfresh]

I haven't seen people on drugs act this way. I would not suspect drugs. But trying anxiety meds might be needed as a test. Look at it this way. If you take the anxiety meds and it goes away you have an answer. If it doesn't go away then you have an answer. At this point you are not sure it is anxiety, but medical professionals think it is. Might be time to try meds to rule it in or out. You situation is not getting better. Now after you try anxiety meds and it doesn't go away they would be forced to look deeper in to this. But I don't think you are going to get further unless it gets much worst or you try to now rule out anxiety. It very well looks like it is that. With some other conditions that cause your symptoms they usually get very bad very quickly and most of them by this time have already been ruled out by time alone. The fact that this is staying the same basically points even stronger to subconscious anxiety. At this point it seems that you are just reacting with anxiety that is worried about anxiety.

BELIEVE ME I KNOW. I was misdiagnosed with anxiety and felt like I could not breathe. Nothing like having a life threatening allergic reaction that can and will kill you and having someone tell you to except that it is just anxiety, don't fight it, pass out and when you wake up you will see it was all anxiety. Well I don't think after my lungs filled up with fluid I was going to wake up so easily. So I went through what you are going through where you don't believe your doctor. I changed doctors a few times before one doctor found hard proof and looked in to my lungs. I did not have anxiety. BUT I UNDERSTAND YOUR FIGHT NOT TO ACCEPT WHAT THEY ARE SAYING.

The difference was that I was taking meds and trying new things. I almost tried anxiety meds but then found out it was not anxiety. I had been taking meds for allergy and asthma that were working and stopping the reactions. My earlier doctor said it was all in my mind and the meds were not really working, I felt better because I thought they were working.

HERE IS THE DIFFERENCE. My meds were really working. I went to doctors every day of the week I could to find out what this was. So look. I think you have seen a few already. If you are not sure, see a few more. But at some point they are either going to find something or you will have to try anxiety meds to rule out anxiety. The meds will either work or not work. You don't have to stay on them forever just a week or two to see if your symptoms go away completely. But do something. Set a limit. After you see 5 more doctors you will try anxiety meds.

If the anxiety meds do nothing, then you can at least tell doctors, been there tried that, did not work so we have to look for something else.

Email me if you have tried anxiety meds and had no progress. I will send you ideas on where to look next for treatment for the next step. I think you can rule out your heart as a problem at this point. I don't want to put any more ideas in your head right now until anxiety is ruled out.

[BabaluandOtis2]

It's OK..no offense taken.
Believe me I know the ER scene where they think you're on drugs.......or in my case think I'm just your average "garden-variety" hormonal neurotic female : P

And those situations where they don't take you seriously just make your anxiety so much worse ; )

[RubyWitch]

There is virtually nothing I can add to all the posts above, base. You've been given the best advice this forum has to offer. Among the most classic symptoms of anxiety is the denial we HAVE anxiety...........as was proved by your six month debate with your therapist. Anxiety is a VERY treatable disorder..........I don't understand why you are so resistant to accepting this diagnosis. It's almost as if you'd rather be told you had some horrible disease. There is no shame in having anxiety. It does not mean you're crazy. It means you have something inside you causing you to feel emotional pain and because you aren't dealing with THAT pain, it's gotta go somewhere, so it's presenting itself as twitches and spasms and weird head bubbles and all the other symptoms you've described. Until you decide to deal with what's going on under the surface, your storm will continue to rage.
I would urge you to find a psychiatrist well versed with anxiety/panic, hand him a copy of your post and begin your journey to recovery. A psychiatrist will treat both your mind and your body............so on the off chance you have a disorder not related to anxiety, he/she will know and get you the help you need.
That you keep posting to us proves that you really want to help yourself...........so you've taken that really hard first step. Now my friend, take the next one.
Peace
Greenlydia  

[base09]

im sorry im just mad cuz when i went to the er the women kept tellin me to be honest and tell her im taking drugs and im not so she gave me a drug screen and then she diddnt even apologize and then i read that post and i thought u thought i was on drugs and it made me mad i thought u was making fun of me and also my family has questioned me if i was on drugs last week and that made me cry cuz everyone thinks im on drugs and im not so im really sorry i just took it wrong

[BabaluandOtis2]

I'm guessing maybe you are referring to my "Motel 6" post ? If so that was in reply to  JSGeare, it says who it's to right up there.

You know the Motel 6 commercials? They say " We'll keep the light on for you"

I was joking around with him.....thats all ; )


thank you nursegirl ; )

[nursegirl6572]

WOAH........chill.

Dude...she meant MEDICATION for your anxiety.  

I just wish you'd get treatment for the anxiety, as there isn't anything different we can possibly tell you.

[base09]

what did u mean by that im not on drugs if that is what u ment but what the hell did u mean

[BabaluandOtis2]

"Now -go! We'll keep the light on for you."

You wouldn't by chance be hanging out at at "Motel 6" would you........LOL.......

You are quite amusing with your posts....and with this crazy disorder, you really have to be.......; )

[Autumnx1003]

I agree with everyone above.  This definitely sounds like anxiety and I certainly think you should give medication a shot.  As a counselor---a counselor who suffers with CHRONIC severe anixety---my rule of thumb is that when anxiety is interfering with your quality of life, that is when you have to take more drastic measures to control it.  I have always been hesitant to try medication, but in recent months have decided to try it just because I feel like my quality of life is suffering from anxiety.  And, I have discorvered many MANY people who have shown great improvement by taking medications.  If you are not comfortable with an SSRI or something that takes longer to work in your body, then you could see about getting a shorter acting benzo---like Xanax or klonopin---which you could take only when your symptoms act up.  Of course, you need to be careful with these because they can be addictive if you take them frequently.  But at the very least, if you took a benzo and it relieved your symptoms, then you could be further assured that your symptoms are anxiety related.  

Another thing to think about is that many of the SSRI meds are also prescribed for various nervous system problems, not just anxiety.  For example, some fibromyalgia and dysautonomia sufferers are treated with SSRIs.  Therefore, if it did turn out, by some rare chance, that you actually have maybe a more physical problem, then the treatment for anxiety and the problem might be the same.

All in all, I would certainly see about trying some medication.  Also, please keep us updated on your progress.  I have this forum to be of great help the last few months, and I think there is a lot of healing to be done here :)

[JSGeare]

Whoa, horse!

OK, let's say that your symptoms are NOT classic (they ARE, but for the sake of argument let's stipulate that they are NOT).

So NOW you have anxiety about whether you really DO have anxiety or something else or both or neither.

And that, my friend, is all about how anxiety works. Should you therefore get treated for it? Yeah, sure. The worse that can happen is that you'll get better.

And your problem with that is ...?

Now -go! We'll keep the light on for you.

[heartfluttersflyawayplz]

ok have you been checked out by your dr from head to toe, and if so did everything come back normal, if so than feel assured its anxiety am same way have had ir since i was 23 now 48 and still alive , hard to belive its nothing that will kill you but am still here and still have the problems so i know its anxiety, yes it still scares me and yes there are days i want to run to er because i feel so bad but i hang in there and before i know it am feeling better. so try and see what brings it on, mine it just comes but with stress worse, hang in there with us were there for you .

[scaredjo]

you are exactly how i used to be and sometimes still am,,, seeking RE-ASSURANCE i posted many times with the same things cause i needed to hear from other people that they had the same symptoms etc i to am so scared of dying i get hot and sweaty but feel cold, i dont have the muscle twitches BUT i do have daily chest pains and tightness, i feel like i could drop dead at any moment BUT i never do and you havent either!!!!
anxiety is the most weirdest scariest thing i have ever come across the things that can happen to your body is crazy, if you have been checked by er a few times i am sure you are fine they couldnt just push you away with an anxiety diagnosis they have to cover other illnesses. its all a case of believin the doctors and i know its nearly impossible to do but hopefully pretty soon it will click and you will start believin, you have to otherwise you will waste years of your life worrying but realise 10 yrs later your still here just as i have.
good luck hun
jo

[crystalfresh]

But I don't know enough about anxiety and meds. So talk to your doctor to see if this will work. If you need to rule out anxiety this could be a way. Then again maybe it won't. Talk to the doc about this idea.

[crystalfresh]

If you try anxiety meds and this doesn't go away then you can look further. From what I understand proper anxiety meds will stop this from happening IF it is anxiety. If it goes away you have an answer, if you try a few anxiety meds and you still feel this way then you might be able to rule out anxiety. Talk to your doctor about this idea. At least then you can tell your doctor, tried anxiety meds, did not stop this, so maybe it is real then??

[BabaluandOtis2]

Yes, yes, and yes......and yes. These ARE all classic symptoms of anxiety. There so many "classic" symptoms. One person can have just a few, others will have many. And the more you think about them, like you do EVERY minute of EVERY day, they WILL get more severe.
This went on for months and months for me, I refused to believe that anxiety could produce such physical symptoms. It snowballed to the point I had a severe panic attack, thought I was DYING for sure this time, went to the ER and that doc was so wonderful, really explaining things. The next day I finally told myself to stop being so stubborn  and try my medication like the ER doc prescribed, and guess what? In one week all those symptoms were GONE. I was dumbfounded.
Granted, I have GAD so mine do come back, some days are better than others, but I am A LOT better than I was back then. I haven't had the more severe symptoms in awhile.  And I'm not such an idiot anymore about not using my medication and always beating myself up for what I haven't got done, and being angry about this happening.  For me researching and learning so many people have this too helped a lot. And positive thinking about what I have accomplished today, however small.

Why haven't you been prescribed something for it if talk therapy alone isn't working for you?