scared :(

[mondd2311]

hi, i have been diagnosed with servere anxiety and panic attacks which has caused depression although i dont feel depressed i have had these brain zaps where i feel out of it constantly crying and zoned out, i have only had these episodes twices but have anxiety everyday im constantly alert 24/7 while i had these moments it felt like butterflies in my head weird feeling i now take 50mg zoloft in the morning with my yaz b/c pill and 2mg of valium to relax  me during the day and at night i take 4mg of valium too put me too sleep now i have only just been taking these pills for 3 weeks now i have had some good sleeps with the valium but last night i had an awful sleep woke up n freaked out that im losing my mind or going crazy these pills make me feel like my brain is jus going to turn into a vegetable im scared to death .. i now have the weird sensations in my head back and my tongue gets tingles in it and minor head pain but not headache im scared im damaging my brain that ill never remember anything again or worse.. can this happen please help im over this, thankyou
i dont want to die or end up in a mental hospital or my brain going into a coma state
has this ever happened with these drugs or what if there is something different will these drugs trigger something else..???

[LighteningGirl]

hey, I have really bad anxiety and get panic attacks too. I read all ur posts on here and I feel your worries. I totally know that "omg look how real i am and look at this body it's so different from me.." you can almost feel yourself thinking. like you want to escape your body or something feeling... totally aware of yourself that it just consumes you and you obsess over it... it's horrible! it freaks me out and I usually get really scared and start crying. I stay in my bed for hours and hours just freaking out... if you try to distract yourself by pinching yourself or thinking of other things that you care about that have nothing to do with what's going on right there... it sometimes helps. you just gotta make urself unaware of yourself distracting yourself? if that makes sense. it's soooo hard. usually calling someone without telling them what's going on will help you... no matter how badly you want to tell them what's going on, if u don't then you will probably forget about it.

this stuff has consumed my life for like half a year now, it's dreadful and dr's and counselors and people really don't have any solid solutions other than meds and "coping strategies"...but really you gotta figure it out for yourself cuz it's all in YOUR mind and they can't get in there, right?

I'm no expert I just thought I'd let u know that someone else (I'm 20yr old female) is going through similar sh** as you...

[hava]

To give your brain some rest and supply extra oxygen, please do this pranayam now for 20 minutes, and then twice a day, daily.Sit comfortably on the floor or chair and do it with eyes closed.You will notice the brain getting relaxed in days and your problem will get better gradually, so be patient.
Build up your timing gradually.If you feel tired or dizzy, stop and resume after one minute.
Anulom Vilom pranayam –
Close your right nostril with thumb and deep breath-in through left nostril  
then – close left nostril with two fingers and breath-out through right nostril  
then -keeping the left nostril closed  deep breath-in through right nostril
then - close your right nostril with thumb and breath-out through left nostril.
This is one cycle of anulom vilom.
Repeat this cycle for 15 to 30  minutes twice a day.
Children under 15 years – do 5 to 10 minutes twice a day.
You can do this before breakfast/lunch/dinner or before bedtime or in bed.Remember to take deep long breaths into the lungs.You can do this while sitting on floor or chair or lying in bed.
December 24, 2010

[mondd2311]

yes i do do tht and i have gotten to the point where i dont care anymore i get the feelings but jus think wateva if im guna die im going to die i understand tht bit but i hate the constant alertness thts the bit i hate not the alertness where omg when will i have another attack tht dnt worry me jus the alertness on why am i an individual and constantly thinking about me so over it...!!! hope u understand

[loveymom3]

I used to have the constant alertness and I wanted to crawl out of my skin!!!! My anxiety and panic attacks started in late September. It only got worse since I would  constantly fear the "next" panic attack. I was CONSTANLY on high alert to the point it tired me out. The first thing I would think of when I opened my eyes in the morning was "Oh, no WHEN is it going to start". My mind was always racing and analyzing every little body sensation. It would freak me out to think about being me...hard to explain, I just wanted to go back to being me...I hibernated, afarid to go out. Stopped socializing, stopped going to my children's school functions, and was afraid to be alone. I had to had the phone with me at all times, in case I had to call 911 (I did 1 time). BUT....there is hope. I was presctibed Ativan but never took it in fear that I would die from that??? So, I basically have been reading alot on panic and just stopped letting it control my life. I promise you...the more you ignore it, the less the 24/7 anxiety will control your mind. It took me several weeks to get over that constant anxiety. I still have bad days where it can get the better of me but I just push through it. I basically talk to the panic and say, "fine, if you are going to kill me, do it now. If not, I have things to do and children to tend to." It does work! Happy holidays and God Bless!!!!

[mondd2311]

but does anyone seem to have the constant alertness tht i have explained i have had it for ages now and if i have to live with it i dnt know how long i will last i need to know if there is someone out there w2ith the same so i can chat and get some more understanding cz i google and searched so much but it seems like i am the only one tht has this condition and i think this is the cause of all my other problems but i jus cant seem to get rid of it...

[DJ873]

i read something yeterday that said if you thought you were going to die, why didn't you? If you thought you were going crazy, why didn't you? those are both irreversible. Because you never were to begin with, not a ritual, not luck, not a pill stopped those things from happening. That it is all a trick of the mind that we can notice and and not fight but leave it to float around out there and refocus our attention..
Also, i take zoloft but at night, it seems to help but by morning i don't have and side effects.

[mandapanda928]

Yeah i know what your talking about it's like your very aware of your own mind and your thinking ! And almost as if you can't get out of your own head and your just very aware of everything that goes on around you . That is usually when your anxiety levels are really high i know it sounds really stupid but if you meditate or exercise try to calm your mind , your brain isnt dying it is just very alert and sometimes your brain goes into overload mode and that's when you have a panic attack because your stressing very much .

[mia0621]

I have suffered anxiety and panic attacks for more than 30 years. I have experienced all of the symptoms you described. You are not losing your mind, and anxiety attacks don't kill you. there is a lot of information to read and understand the effects of anxiety. Understanding brings more relief and helps you get a grip. i still have good days and bad days, but at least I know what is happening and why and that makes it easier to gain control. It's the negative thoughts and "what if's" that increase the severity of the attacks and feed into them. Just remember that you have had these scary feelings before and nothing awful happened to you. You are working with your doctor to get things under control and that is the first step, but educating yourself helps a lot too. I couldn't leave my house or drive a car for a long time. Now I work a full time job and drive every day. Having a helpful understanding friend to talk to can make a huge difference too. I met a friend at work who had similar experiences. She has helped me a lot. Have a good physical for your own peace of mind, then get all of the info you can find. Also people here can support one another. Good luck.

[mondd2311]

thanx guys... do any of you have the constant alert feeling like u know ur an idividual and your inside ur own body ect.... i jus had the scariest experience and am freaking out right about now i have been none stop all day trying to get ready for christmas and oushing my self i was mentally exhausted i layed down had a lil sleep although it was like i was half asleep halp away thn all of a sudden it was like a big electric shock went through my head and i automatically had to taake this big gasp for air now my head hurts i seriously think im losing oxygen up there other wise tht wouldnt happen or the alertness cz thts brain related too my face is numb i have head pain n now tingles in m tongue n im home alone n once again ALERT i cnt live like this forever im scared to sleep tonight now and i dnt kno how much of ALERTNESS i can take but no matter wat doc or psychiatrist i go to and explain the alertness they dnt kno wat im on about its frustrating n hard to live with :"( is this normal... im fading away i can feel it my brain is slowly dying...

[mandapanda928]

One of my biggest fears was going into a mental hospital while i had anxiety (which i still have) & i still fear it ! But it is not going to happen! Anxiety is very common so many people have it you are not alone ! And you will not go crazy! That is what anxiety feeds off of is thoughts like that ! That's what anxiety does, when you are scared or think something is going to happen and you think too deep in it you get bodily sensations , i used to get cold sensations all the way down the back of my head i went to a neurologist and that also is caused by anxiety . No matter how much you feel you are going to go crazy i feel like it everyday ! But just push through the day and realize you are not going to go crazy! It's anxiety getting the best of you nothing will happen ! Sometimes bad anxiety can also make you feel detached like you are not real , and it can be scary but just know everything is going to be ok! This will only make you stronger! And also i take 100 mg of zoloft and it seems to do nothing for me , i still worry and stress 24/7 maybe if it's not working try to see if you can take something else. I hope this helps ! <3